First of all, i am neither a seer nor a soothsayer. i am just someone with a psych history who met an alien recently. I have to go take that out of my blog header.
About my son
He means the world to me and nothing else can compare. The Dove was important, but it became ancillary, through a paradigm shift off of Boston and Manhattan to Buffalo, NY, a stone's throw from my own birthplace in PA also near Lake Erie, to my relationship with a Canadian husband and the birth of … Continue reading About my son
As we speak
I have to make a serious confession. I have to relinquish my son and my husband from my life. It was nice to be expunged from Harvard and every affiliate for a few days but I don't think that that is actually the case. I was tossing mail today and a lot of it was … Continue reading As we speak
About “Sam”
He told me he only lets the phone ring 3 times and hangs up if nobody picks up. A while after our relationship, such as it was, had ended, The phone rang three times, and then stopped. I thought, was that him? I let it go. There was no way to know. I thought, probably … Continue reading About “Sam”
today
...NOT THE DAY AFTER COULDA BEEN When I was little my parents absolutely comically laughed and freaked out over the movie "The Russians are Coming." I don't remember it at all and I didn't understand why it was funny. That was their America. A place where you could laugh. And it always stayed that way … Continue reading today
14 days; running blog post today; final update 5:23 p.m.
ORIENTED ...for the first time in two years ...for the first time in my life I finally picked up the time that I lost in Reading after I met the ALIEN in October of 2021 here in the cottage from which I am sending this message. I had it as 5 days in the woods. … Continue reading 14 days; running blog post today; final update 5:23 p.m.
Taboo
Psych used to be taboo. A whisper. It was broken open by Susannah Keyson who wrote "Girl Interrupted" back in the '90's. I couldn't finish reading the book because of how corrupted by psych my life was at that time but I read enough to to be completely thrilled that a light was being cast … Continue reading Taboo
EXPUNGED
After declaring myself expunged from Harvard (a word came to me and then I wasn't sure so I made myself expunged anyway; it was preferable and sane); I learned that in fact I had already been expunged a long time ago. They just send me the monthly magazine so I don't hurt myself over it. … Continue reading EXPUNGED
psych care
they take you, they take what you have, then they send you out again. They talk to you about the revolving door, and plant seeds in your mind to bring you back. The expression in itself is one in itself. At this time in my life I fear to go through an actual revolving door. … Continue reading psych care
Proactive Proliferation
It starts. The court case is closed. The rest of our lives finally begins. It comes down to the ectopic pregnancy. My mother went to the hospital on my fifth birthday, so it's easy to remember. She talked to my about it quite a bit and I do remember. She showed me the scar on … Continue reading Proactive Proliferation
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