I didnt get it right away. How silly of me. God has saved me from death and brought me to new life. I didn't bother to ask Him what I should do! Live for Him of course!
Victory, Victory in Christ
Well one victory was long in coming, i had to learn about forgiveness, and my son helped me too: you can't control others, he pointed out. I was very afraid of giving over sexual territory becsuse of my history, but now I have "the new innocence, " and when the male resident B. got close … Continue reading Victory, Victory in Christ
Cutthroat–silly of me
There's a woman here who has the better of me through the men. Something went down about a "gang bang." She was standing talking to little J., who isn't here any more, i just realized. And i walked in. Their eyes were locked. Then he turned to me. In the end something was said about … Continue reading Cutthroat–silly of me
Not going well
My turning over a new leaf here is not going well. I had a bad monent with the nighttime security guard that reminded me of how badly i was treated in my earlier stay here, and i had the feeling I wouldn't be able to let it go. And just now the two different men … Continue reading Not going well
Repentance
I come upon a place very different from what I thought. The Lord wont take me back to where i was early this morning where i saw my son and his suffering and how he felt about my book and my blogging. I caught a glimpse of it and then it was gone again. I … Continue reading Repentance
My horrible book
Tremendous value in getting "pissed off" like that. (See the post by that name). First, the X-ville reconciliation I described in my last post, and now i have come to terms with my son and my horrible book. Which brings me to the end of figuring my suicide attempt. I self-published a book made up … Continue reading My horrible book
All is Well
Resident T., who pissed in the sunshine outside the smoking porch this afternoon, was out there alone when i went outsude for a lonely smike just now, and ran inside when he saw me. On the way back in i felt corrupted, like I became the bully I have inside. On the way up the … Continue reading All is Well
New life at a personal boarding care home
So yes, in answer to my question, it is sometimes an imperative TO go out fir a cigarette. I wasn't sure. That was my pain. I was meant to go out there and take that as a warning. I thought I could post about my experience of Black America but now that I'm in the … Continue reading New life at a personal boarding care home
“Pissed” off
A male resident just pissed in front of me outside the smoking porch. I wasnt looking and then i turned around and got an eyeful. I am very upset. I have been struggling all morning with a post that wouldn't come out right so i finally ditched three posts and im starting from scratch. On … Continue reading “Pissed” off
Wow
Big things are in the pipeline. This morning I made up with the patient B. whom i mentioned in another post: he had a bad fall over the weekend so it was timely. I had forgiven him and repented if a bad attitude towards his clumsiness borne out if resentment. Thank God. On the way … Continue reading Wow
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