Not my ex. But it coulda been. My father f'd up. He just didn't know how to give. Too poor as a child. Didn't know how to give me away to the man of my dreams when I met him. So on the Tower unit I sang for him--my ex. I stood in the back … Continue reading The Spy Who Loved Me to Death
Abt My Mother
I have to beg for indulgence toward her, I am thinking that she is still living. Please remember the picture I painted of her that I saw of her in my mind, running through a deep forest in a flowered dress terrified of being skinned alive by natives. It was so horrifying to me. I … Continue reading Abt My Mother
Trap
It's one thing if I get myself into a sick trap, I can handle it. My brother and I practiced this when we were young. I do NOT want to be responsible for putting my old friend A in one. Please understand this. My father had guilt issues over not being a soldier in WWII. … Continue reading Trap
Yes, Sick Work. More Sick Work
I realized that my friend A would not be responsible for it, she would be a victim. Recently I found out that I was a very strong person. The lesion on my face irritatingly sapped my strength all my life. I tired after the least exertion. When I came back here after the last hospitalization … Continue reading Yes, Sick Work. More Sick Work
Always Remember
Sometimes it doesn't seem like it but, God is love. God cares. God has a plan.
Sick Work
This is sick work, but it has to be done. Now that I have been able to relinquish the pitiable condition with which I have been enmeshed in the WORST SUFFERING since I was in my late 20's, I can turn my focus to the cause I planned to pick up two years ago, along … Continue reading Sick Work
over the ocd
Thank God. I just realized it. This is real. This should be WORLD NEWS!!! I'm over the OCD. I was finally able to express it as a "disorder of my reflexes." It was like I was watching myself think and move and getting stuck. A doctor in California called it "anxiety reactive" and I took … Continue reading over the ocd
Lack of Training in America
Lord, help us all with our lack of training in America, especially with our words! We come here from other countries trying to fit in. I felt lethargic and stupid and left out at best, an ugly mess at worst. What is the American language? It is constantly being redefined. There is money in this. … Continue reading Lack of Training in America
Johns Hopkins
The malpractice of Johns Hopkins University Medical School Affective Disorders Unit is responsible for the chaos in Washington. Lipsey mentioned how they would follow me when I left and they did. I was in numerous situations significantly close to the government through my ex's work in Silver Spring, MD including work in the Beirut government … Continue reading Johns Hopkins
About Joe Biden
He seems to be a creditable fellow. Stressed beyond all help. It reflects the nature of the nation today. I have frequently expressed my policy to support the incumbent. What's the point of electing a president and then warring against him? Once he is in office, you have to get your asses behind him. No … Continue reading About Joe Biden
Un.Bon.Mot 