that my father held all his life weighed on the whole family. We took it for given that that is just what life is for us. Without really knowing why. It drove me to a suicidal adulthood from age 21 to age idk late 50s and then I finally asked the question WHY!?! And I … Continue reading The heavy cloak of importance →

No SHAME; CHARM UNSTUCK: BREAK IT OUT I was IMMOTILIZED; now I am slowly MOBILIZING an OCCULT HEALING has happened here since and during Tower Health, Philhaven and the Act Team Berks Cty. I don't know whether I will live to see it complete but I know it has started in full force through the … Continue reading →

A while back--around 2015--I choked up some dark brown stuff. Evidentially it had been sitting in my lungs for a long time. This was after I had gone to a fast food restaurant and was afraid they had put something in my burger well, evidently they had. There was a gross, slick spot on it. … Continue reading Choking →

I put up my last post at the behest of my son. I was in a rush and I don't know if I said it right. At the time everybody was very mat at me and I didn't know why. I was very angry at them and I didn't understand that everybody else was very … Continue reading TASERING →

Around 2009 on the Gulf Coast of Florida in the pristine shores of the Tampa Bay Area I got tasered inside the front door of my lovely four-story split level home. In a panic I had just thrown coffee at him. I was afraid that something terrible was going to happen. There was a party … Continue reading Tasering →

It is silly to believe there is no such thing as ALIENS when there are gazillions of universes, with galaxies, and planets just like ours. Only a child would think so, one who had never learned how to look up at the stars. It took time for us to grown covered over within our own … Continue reading Silly →

Im starting to wonder if its ever going to end. This time it is not for Ian but for me. The girlfriend is trying to get rid of ME. I understand that you relinquish your on into the arm of his wife when the times comes. But I do not feel comfortable that this is … Continue reading girlfriend trouble →

Have I recently shared my self-invented principles for recovery from a bout with the mental health system? To clear your deaths and streamline your ship to get back into society, there are two principles. DON'T let anyone say you are living in the past and leave it at that because there is probably a reason … Continue reading un bon mot →

I loved you once, I loved you twice, I loved you a thousand times. But at the end I cannot accommodate your hi-jynx directed at me every day and night all day and all night long. When do you sleep? Every so often I get to. You were a beautiful person once and I guess … Continue reading Dad →

According to what I am hearing this place is going down. My father is going; I am going. Wherever I am going, the cats will go with me. Ian will be welcome any where I go. Who knows what the plot was the was ongoing through my mother's final days and afterwards. It seems that … Continue reading used →