...was (is?) brilliant, noble and wise. She didn't prefer me. I finally figured out in the past few weeks that they had serious issues with my little sister. She wouldn't eat. It was so bad that they were afraid she wouldn't live. She was also a little sweetheart. I was a problem in a serious … Continue reading My Mother…
In the hospital…
for Martin Luther King Day this year. I was afraid here the year before because I have experienced negativity toward my old policy to always show love to a black person for all they have gone through historically and in the present. I HAVE begun to understand how, as we slowly mature with regard to … Continue reading In the hospital…
oh yes and…
I have the congenital deficiency going back through my mother to her father's tb as a young man; and the organic personality disorder recently discerned; AND major depressive symptoms amounting to YEARS of suicidal depression, three separate bouts of this in fact, I was ALWAYS suicidally depressed after my leave of absence from college in … Continue reading oh yes and…
For my Father
A lot of words have been said in the decades of my illness due to a continuing pattern of misdiagnosis. Psych workers always support each other and dismiss evidence in order to do so. A lot of nasty words have been said in my family. But I believe that it is near the end for … Continue reading For my Father
ALIENS
they are here. After all ny frantic self-centered papertrail cleanup last night i see that in the end it had nothing to fo with me. it was about creating the exact footprint of an alien landing here for future purposes. it must be hard for you to see what i am seeing here after months … Continue reading ALIENS
cleaning up
...organizing the paperwork, which has been progressively strewn over the floor-- the end of my paper trail since childhood. to be brief i have a meme for this situation that came to the surface just as i got done for the night: here it is. johns hopkins affective disorders unit, whether i win this lawsuit … Continue reading cleaning up
Finally!!!!
The Titanic. That was what it was like for our marriage and our son's upbringing in Florida. Now we are here instead. Here is PA for me: the kitchen in the cottage here in PA ITS BEAUTIFUL!! with a glimpse of the new portable dishwasher. It works! But what I'm looking for here that I … Continue reading Finally!!!!
Mother Advocate Finally Rests
no more wars Actually this would be how I was AFTER I recovered from my stay at the Horsham Clinic last year, at that time I was the "core on two stilts, a face neither man now woman; and how the ALIEN4 (thats what I called him at the beginning) turned me into a flesh … Continue reading Mother Advocate Finally Rests
Angel or ALIEN
just one tiny ignorant little worm at the heart of this. but... the most spectacular vast wings of light, multiplex, crystalline, the size of a few buildings but on outer space terms. poised in the sky in my mind Friend or foe?
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