Then, I spent weeks writing about eight applications to all the top colleges. It was a work of love. I sent them just a few days before the due date which was January 1st. And I attached the essay to every one regardless of the question. The Yale interviewer said Yale probably wouldn't take me … Continue reading college personal essay, contd (see last post)
Lynne at Kent: college application personal essay
Me and my brother t i was so thrilled with this piece of writing. It got me into the top echelon of colleges, and the weirdest thing is hat it really depicts everything about how my lifevwas going to go and what I was going to do. it is like Rasselas, bu Samuel Johnson; and … Continue reading Lynne at Kent: college application personal essay
Eerie today
me today This is me. A lot of the time. My head hangs. Rather poetically in so many ways. I'll admit it. Its poetic justice on me sometimes. For the people who I stepped on not realizing that it would come back to me. I didn't really understand what was going on. That is what … Continue reading Eerie today
hints and memories
i remember sitting n my bed in high school boarding school) eating candy from the machine, and being in SO MUCH PAi h i have finally figured this out. it was like an overwhelmingly intense ache, an unbearable feeling of absence... OBVIOUSLY, I had had an abortion just as i thought. Dunno about the timing … Continue reading hints and memories
dentists–too much
there is something going on with my dental care. A young dentist in Florida completely destroyed my bit with a bad crown. My teeth were never right after that. Dentists kept trying to fix the problem with new crowns. Then I saw a dentist here who did terrible work. I got a nasty shot that … Continue reading dentists–too much
embarrassment
Sometimes one bad thing solves something worse/ I ran to the front door in my skivvy nighty with a corduroy short covering it because I was waiting for a delivery that I was afraid my father would refuse the delivery. He was stuck out back and didn't have time to do anthing. It is a … Continue reading embarrassment
alibi
Catholic Christian Radio, Tamp, Florida I was addic ted to it. In PA i was constantly listening to songs on the radio running through my mind. In California I took it to the highways. Driving my sharp, shock-blue Acura smoking cigarettes and listening to a few CD's where I got as far as L.A. or … Continue reading alibi
the love of my life
I was waiting for someone very special. Unfortunately, I did not know to refrain from sexuality with other men in the mean time. A young friend of my father's said in a get-together I wasn't part of, as was normally the case, suggested that I needed someone strong--SEXUALLY strong. Alex and I wandered into each … Continue reading the love of my life
lies, fabrications
also, Ian, you may be hearing a lot of lies and fabrications from people who only knew that I went to the state hospital and let go. Your ideas and memories change over the years about people you knew when they hear bad things. Your ideas about who you were to them change when you … Continue reading lies, fabrications
Letter to my son
I am sensing in your mood that you are hearing some bad things from people who knew me at Kent and Harvard and other times. I am very sorry for this. Sorry that people are telling you and sorry that those things happened. There were a lot of people taking advantage of me and leading me down wrong paths and … Continue reading Letter to my son
Un.Bon.Mot 