A new concept in psych

I hit upon the concept pt of Retroactive Interpolation in psychotherapy and my last post represented a trial of it. After that, or as a part of it, comes proactive proliferation of tthe better future. That's where I was at after getting out of Horsham and comng h9m toa dangerous situation here. That's why all … Continue reading A new concept in psych →

mother & son

[see note at bott9m re typos] it's an indissoluble bond. my new lamp, inbelnownst to me when i ordered it, is called "Torchiere Mother and Son." It just made the whole thing perfect. As this nev situation started out with a project to retroactively heal everything pertaining to my son's 's life from conception to … Continue reading mother & son →

turnaround

so, I went through the worst MH moment on record after taking a seemingly insignificant overdose in 2015 (?). I just had the weirdest, irresistible urge to put pills in my mouth and the urge finally won on my parents anniversary. I was j7s5 sitt8ngvthere at the dining room table where I k4pt all the … Continue reading turnaround →

re: inventory at age 60

from a week ago I have to add the 15 years total breakdown from 2003 to 2018 over sick constipation. A doctor in Allentown had the answer in 2018: Miralax. It worked once and then it kept on working. Before going to the hospital this time last year, it stopped working and i was horribly … Continue reading re: inventory at age 60 →

Feldman in Tampa

Sorting things out today. Remembering how he forced me off of my faith. Saying that when I said "jesus" all the time it was just a mantra. This was at Memorial Hospital in Tampa. Im sure people remember, even though it was in 2003. I made a spectacle of myself on his psych ward because … Continue reading Feldman in Tampa →

Missing my ex

it took 10 years to be out of the relationship. I needed to change. I sent him emails every day and asked if it was okay. Every 3 months or so I got a one- word reply: "Yes." but I was very ill. I had a relationship in college that scratched the surface of where … Continue reading Missing my ex →

praising Philhaven

It was a clean and spartan stay where I was able to divest myself of a lot of damage from what they did to me at Haven in Reading. I saw that a lot of people were quite happy there. I just wasn't a good fit. And its probably a problem in the industry to … Continue reading praising Philhaven →

I once was lost…

my son among the alien4 and alien5 who have been here to clean up the mess from the 20th c. us, happy as we should have been, as follows: the name Ian is Scottish for John Alex Young in LA. 1992 happiness I may not have looked that way, but I felt that way. Isn … Continue reading I once was lost… →

Me and my son incarcerated

a special person goes to jail I couldn't bear the thought. Meanwhile, i was incarcerated on an extended acute care unit after a horrible overdose and I couldn't do anything to help. I think that we are slowly losing those years (for the good). I just realized what used to happen to me when I … Continue reading Me and my son incarcerated →

extermination

I just figured out the word for what my father wants to do to me. He hates me. And has since the moment I was born. all this, point, everything that's going down, is because of his naive immaturity. He's still the same at 90. He needs to go away for a little while, just … Continue reading extermination →