I came across this at the Haven Hospital, Reading. I left off with the imitation of Christ that I had done since a teenager. It had such disturbing elements. I thought I had to BE Jesus Christ. I didn't know exactly what form that would take. I started by trying to "take on" other peoples … Continue reading The Imitation of St Mary Magdelan
breakaway
They are controlling me. Issues Been doing it for a long time. My father sells it. I just heard a little two-tone chime in my left ear like the recurrent pretty chime the tablet sends out regularly. Now I really know. I also know to honor my father (and mother). I also know to stand … Continue reading breakaway
poverty
I have lived most of my life in desperate poverty. In high school it was food, I was afraid to eat. in college, I was too busy drinking gin and tonics and other libations to be able to organize normal undergraduate activities. I was burning the candle at both ends, as the saying goes. then, … Continue reading poverty
commitment
That word can mean such nice things. but it can also mean being placed involuntarily in a psychiatric setting. I have been running from this word for 42 years. I will follow the Lord.
my mother
I don't know what to think. does he want to get rid of me so she can come back? Whether here or somewhere else? he says he wants me to stay but he doesn't act like it, he goes out to lunch with his friends and makes jokes about me, I know that he does. … Continue reading my mother
About the sick sin of masturbation
in the Catholic church it is grave sin, in other words, mortal sin. My best guess is that that means you die of it; regarding Heaven and Hell I don't know. first of all, I am the WORST Christian. I came to it through t he back door, through terror of Satan, and don't have … Continue reading About the sick sin of masturbation
More on MHWorld, Religion, and separation of Church and state
I worked out my central faith issues at Philhaven. I didn't want to stay forever but for one thing, I was doing my alien drawings, and taping them to the outside of the door; staff said they liked reading them when they came in every day. it was such a beatiful sensory experience with the … Continue reading More on MHWorld, Religion, and separation of Church and state
about the MH System today
...and my recent experience of it. there is a problem of cross-cultural misinterpretation and thst has been my problem in it. I hav been treated so badly by doctors, fellow patients, nurses, who don't know where I come from snd what I'm about and don't care. I just sit in my 40 year place in … Continue reading about the MH System today
once is cool, twice is queer
at Haven I was already talking about and beginning to draw about aliens. So that doesn't all belong to Philhaven. I was also trying to safely talk to my sister. at Haven, just before I left, they grabbed my gold folder that had items of critical worth that I thought I needed to verify my … Continue reading once is cool, twice is queer
the Queen
Her Highnes Queen Elizabeth has asked me to withdraw from public debate.
Un.Bon.Mot 