every ship has to have a captain and I remember from my very first hospitalization epwhen I had just turned 22 a woman older than me saying that she felt like we were on a boat. At the time I disdained her for this but I've grown up since then. I was on a ship … Continue reading Captain Ko
aliens
alien4 has been with me, also the Correctional Officer, to help me through this transition back to the real world. That's my level.through this, alien5 has been able to enter to help my father, I am looking for my drawing of him. Oh, I know, It sounds perfectly insane, but it is what it is. … Continue reading aliens
so…
it's finally come down to this. I knew it all my life. My father had problems he couldn't solve. I knew it as a little girl when I tugged at his sleeve trying to get attention from him. I knew it when he called me up at the Lodge Program at Wernersville State Hospital askng … Continue reading so…
so I changed my mind
it's not the same as lying. I'm not closing the blog. I'm not moving. At least, not yet. you'll be hearing from me.
Done
I've said my bit. This blog is done. it was about my family and all the lousy things we did to each other and how I got stuck on the receiving end of all the bs. Now I'm out. I am Lynne Murphy, who had so many friends and hurt so many people; because of … Continue reading Done
I am…
...the mole-wart person. That is how I will be remembered. and that I kept myself awake and alive in the woods in PA in the middle of winter for 5 days by saying "I think therefore I am." And playing a puzzle game 8n my head with the suits in a deck of cards and … Continue reading I am…
the heart of the irony
...in the mental health system nationwide is so simple. Has anybody commented on this before? I saw this when I was at Philhaven watching someone have his rights explained to him while he was signing in. what on Earth is the meaning of a piece of paper signed by a person reporting himself to any … Continue reading the heart of the irony
Sister problems
she's going to be here any time now. she is going to try to have me committed. I am still sick from the shit sandwich and in my nighty all day, canceled with the ACT Team. helps me stay off my knee. I don't know what's wrong but it hurts like mad. want to be … Continue reading Sister problems
Specialness
when I lived here in the 80's (I identified as Berks County), there were 4 diagnoses: major depression, manic depression, schizophrenia, and borderline personality disorder. I always remember that poor fellow with horrible OCD being thrown out of the partial program that I was attending. Since then, things have changed. But those memories are indelible. … Continue reading Specialness
Philhaven
is worse than Wernersville. my father doesn't care which one he sends me to, he just wants a win. I set him a task without meaning to. he said stop proselytizing to me. Christians are odious for how they won't leave you alone when you have no interest in their faith. Hundreds of times he … Continue reading Philhaven
Un.Bon.Mot 