a break on the horizon

someone who can break down these decades of disorganized persecution over a psych condition that was always in question. I used to say it was like walking into a doctors office with a broken leg and a headache from not sleeping and since the doctor is a psychiatrist he finds mental and mood disorders and … Continue reading a break on the horizon →

I will remove this swallowed, held, and choked up poop from the bathroom sink now. it was supposed to be a roast beef sandwich. 2 days later. I have continued to feel sick last night and today. the Lord has antidotes for me which I won't share but I feel confident I will be over … Continue reading →

“People can be so cruel”

I am so sick. this is not the first time. I've been going through poisoning after poisoning for the longest time. I just stay in prayer and ask the Lord to hold me through it. This is the nastiest, a shit sandwich. It was supposed to be roast beef. It's not funny any more. shit … Continue reading “People can be so cruel” →

deceptive

I knew that there was an app for that word in my life but I always assummed it was about my mother. That poor woman. It WAS NOT MY FAULT what happened to her and it was NOT HER FAULT what happened to me. my father's Chinese horoscope (and how rich I have found these … Continue reading deceptive →

Goodness in the Act Team

How on earth would I ever have gotten through the last 4 (?) weeks without them? Yes I was very scared leaving my life in the hands of complete strangers. But there is a miraculous change here, the wart/mole change. People don't just walk away any more and they dont ud3avtgody I dy ever did. … Continue reading Goodness in the Act Team →

abt my sister

I thought she was harmless and I was just making some kind of mistake all these years or my mother was or my father was. I'm crying.

The Cottage

now I see it! I just wasn't thinking! my sister and her boyfriend want the Cottage! (Where I AM LIVING.) I've made it so nice here they want to move in! And oh so so indulgent 90 year old father of a 50 year old daughter ( my sister) wants to give it to her. … Continue reading The Cottage →

Angels, cats, and aliens

some things we don't dare say. but then we do. I am now officially in retirement from the worst and hardest fights of my life and seeing the forest for the trees. fighting abortion it's like when the Berlin Wall fell. but we are still fighting. but it was like seeing the dove and knowing … Continue reading Angels, cats, and aliens →

Not just lonely but alone

at least I have my cats. it's a strange place here. I got so much done with everyone gone for 10 days. My father returns tomorrow. where's home? There are three people wondering about that right now and it all centers on this cottage. And old age and dying at a young age. bouff helps … Continue reading Not just lonely but alone →

My Workstation

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