Finally I am able to detach myself from the cause of saving the undergraduate literary magazine at Harvard in the 80's, the Harvard Advocate. Someone close to me at that time said that he would love to see the Advocate go down under me. I just didn't understand. I had only been on the magazine … Continue reading Denouement–the Harvard Advocate
An Iota Against a Motherlode
I've said so many nasty things about my father in my blog-life. It's like the dirty jokes because of the undiagnosed organic personality disorder and the deep stress I was under and the pain that I was in. I understand now that he was helping to raise both my son AND me and I just … Continue reading An Iota Against a Motherlode
Clean Jokes
Haven Hospital in Reading was sort of a good time--the Pagoda Unit was not much fun but on the Tower Unit, after the episode in the woods, they really cared. I used to have a terrible time with making bad jokes. Jokes that hurt people or sent a bad message or hurt the person I … Continue reading Clean Jokes
UNME
I finally achieved RADICAL ACCEPTANCE. I never appreciated that concept before, just some more psychobabble to me. I particularly disliked it. It meant letting in things that I couldn't, letting on a saddle that felt like razors cutting my flesh. It meant being infantilized when I was still an infant, 3 months, 4 months, 6 … Continue reading UNME
mushroom cloud
Before I went to the hospital in late October or early November, I wrote some posts on abortion. Some Pro-Life posts about my own experience of abortion. I had realized that I had an abortion and possibly a miscarriage as well before I went away to Boarding School and when I went there I completely … Continue reading mushroom cloud
Love, Love, Love
Do it n do it over again. I talked about my sexual dysfunction but I found a man who was right for me. It never felt right at the time but it was. Just right. For me. I needed pain. He was ashamed and I am so sorry for that. Maybe he needed that. But … Continue reading Love, Love, Love
Love
I have a saying that I got through my psychotherapy in Florida; I don't know whether he said it to me, well, as I understand things now I do know that therapists and others do talk to us in our heads. He said to me, "Love is not a game or a joke." I said … Continue reading Love
rape
so it started with the rosetta stone for relationships in our family, it gave it to a young fellow whom I had been pestering, I think his name was Timothy. I was calling him iTim for some reason and forcing him to listen to my sad story. He was young, I had just turned 60. … Continue reading rape
doont be worried
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LOVE IS A RADICAL CAUSE
never abandon a cause our children are causes because they are all cases God passes the idea of a child through ti the woman through the man he passes all of them through through at the time of the wedding a pure and
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