I used to say to my ex husband that I could talk to absolutely anyone because of the places I have been. For instance, I used to randomly and idly talk to men hanging out on street corners by Grand Central Station in New York CIty, and the like. I always talked to foreign cab … Continue reading Falling out of Your Class in America
Daisy
I feel like Im coming out of the closet . Talking about the Kent Girls School on the "Hill Campus" on top of an Appalachian Mountain over the Housatonic River in Litchfield County, Connecticut. In the Valley was the beautiful, 100 year old Red Brick and ivy covered Boys School, I believe that the Girls … Continue reading Daisy
behar
Ian, He's the doctor in Quakertown who gave me a run for my money since late 2017.I remember the first time I saw him. He is a hunch back with a slightly distorted face. He has a hugebelly and wears wide suspenders to hold up his pants. He is not tall. The moment I sat … Continue reading behar
figuring out my life tonight
...and its about romance and marriage and when and where the two collide and when and where they don't. I realized today that all my life I was in a thrall of a romance not even knowing it. It was hidden inside another mainstream college romance that everybody knew about that failed badly, partly because … Continue reading figuring out my life tonight
more on state hospital
Ian, Today I am breaking through to a new level. I am recalling Magdalena. A woman at the state hospital, she was pure blonde, talked to herself all day long under her breath. She said she had a husband floating around somewhere in Germany. Or, she was from Germany. I cant remember. She was a … Continue reading more on state hospital
At The State Hospital
I have talked about Mark at the state hospital; I have talked about David at the State hospital. I never explained that they were friends. Also, significantly, that the girlfriend that had him in a thrall from high school that he blamed for his Illness and was probably the cause for his seducing women and … Continue reading At The State Hospital
Friends
Living in Berks County in the 80s I had many friends and a number of lovers that I shouldnt have. I have written here so many times about how that happened. I didnt know what I was doing, I had been PHYSICALLY HARMED in the ICU where there was already a sexual injury and I … Continue reading Friends
Psych Diagnosis, Contd.; 2
Routinely showering at night instead of during the day, which was onerous. Today I am on an incontinence day because of the continuous lower GI issue; for 2 1/2 years it has been in abeyance with the daily use of Miralax, truly a miracle after a decade and a half of sick, serious lower GI … Continue reading Psych Diagnosis, Contd.; 2
the Advocate
So, at Harvard things were upside down. I finally found my place with other smokers on the undergraduate literary magazine, The Harvard Advocate. I met a man there who rocked my socks. He brought to mind the high school English teacher. Mr. Gould (now decesased) at Kent School, with whom I had been completely obsessed … Continue reading the Advocate
California
Ian, im sitting here thinking out college. It took a lifetime to figure out the social bs mostly because of being English. And because of grandads hi-tech job. I had to go to a major university to field my needs and to fit in but I wasnt really prepared for it. So, today, I am … Continue reading California
Un.Bon.Mot 