So, there's that beautiful word "wonderful" that got made awful by the New York politician who was jailed for sex crimes. For me, it's two words: "inventive" and "exquisite." My ex husband seized on those words over a situation that was ANYTHING BUT and I couldn't get him to let it go. And then, there … Continue reading New York
De facto ban on cigarette smoking a human rights injustice
This flew with Barak Obama Just because he needed to quit smoking we all had to. There was a movement that started out in California in the early 90's. And they lead the nation. At that point, it was a question of banning smoking in public places such as restaurants. And that was horrible for … Continue reading De facto ban on cigarette smoking a human rights injustice
Cats; Satan; high-tech
I have let go of the Satanically inspired moment involving my two cats in my mother's kitchen back in the summer of 1997. I had been at the State Hospital. My mother and father had recently moved here (SE PA) from New Jersey. I had run away from the special program at the hospital for … Continue reading Cats; Satan; high-tech
Letter to My Husband
"Salvation is here..." From a popular Christian song. I could never figure out why they didn't do anything when they took me out of the ambulance literally kicking and screaming back in the summer of 1986, after I lost control after stopping the Mellaril (an older antipsychotic medication) after getting out of getting out of … Continue reading Letter to My Husband
Brothers death “altruistic”
When i was seeing Sister Marie for baptismal counseling, about 2 years ago, i had a concern that caused me to ask my father to step in. It was a sexuality issue that i didn't t know how to resolve. My father said that would be "altruistic" for him to get involved. As if that … Continue reading Brothers death “altruistic”
Old book projects d/c’d
"Every Cloud," a book project that had me for so long, i have discontinued, set aside, abandoned, after this mention i will never again bring it to mind. It led to a serious suicide attrmpt and a bankruptcy. Since then, my brother effectively commited suicide. The book project kept me alive in the most visceral … Continue reading Old book projects d/c’d
Sane
i am putting this back up today because everybody is making me mad. i wrote it a week ago, and then took it down the following morning: It comes upon me to write this post exposing my father's folly in his married and other personal life after about 6 1/4 years since a suicide attempt … Continue reading Sane
Prophet of the psych ward; AGAIN
This has been my role for so long. Life drives you to this. I had the coronavirus mask; and the sunglasses to cover my poor broken eyes (shock; eyelashes all gone.) And then one day I put on the hospital robes, one front to back, the other back to front; and it triggered my old … Continue reading Prophet of the psych ward; AGAIN
Prophets
It's about abortion. "I am the king of the world." "My name is David SON, S-U-N of GOD." I was constantly going to writing a novel called "Voices," I just liked the sound of that title. "My name is power." Uh hmm. (This is a patient from the state hospital speaking through me over the … Continue reading Prophets
MO
Its the newer anti psychotic med that has been causing all this for me. What a horrible night. Left at 7 a.m. without even taking my meds. Drove around all day for 5 hours. Didn't even feed the poor cats. So, I was thinking, maybe I just wont even go back. And, I realized I … Continue reading MO
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