Jeffrey Epsteins suicide is helping me make sense of my brother's. Since last November, when he did it, I have been wondering what the connection is between my frantic processing of the past, and this final act of my brother's. I had woken up that morning making a first time ever assertion in my mind … Continue reading Brother’s Suicide
Golddiggers.com
First, my husband said, you better watch out; there are other women who are getting inerested in me. He was pulling down a nice weekly paycheck as a software consultant; he got started by taking a years leave of absence from a major industry vendor, claiming he needed to take care of me. I was … Continue reading Golddiggers.com
Break Point: Game, Set, Match; updated
My aging mother other and father were glued to tennis on the telly recently: Wimbledon, I presume. Well my own situation is brewing to a break point. As i waited for weeks for new the medication, Nuplazid to be prescribed, approved, ordered, and dispensed from a specialty pharmacy, my entire life was in … Continue reading Break Point: Game, Set, Match; updated
Watershed
My marriage hangs in the balance. My father is convicted of his sin of sexually mistreating me when I was 17. He has abused his power to keep me under his thumb all my life, despite my being married and having a child who needed me. My husband and son disbelieve me. We are divorced. … Continue reading Watershed
Cigarette
Freshman Year, Kent School, Kent, Connecticut, 1975. Praying for St. Maximilllion Kolbe to go there, to the road behind the dorm i lived in, where I was rooming with a Black girl from Harlrm, a scholarship student, who had a pack of cigarettes. Praying for him to take those cigarettes out of my mouth and … Continue reading Cigarette
Angels Do Appear
My life took a strange new turn last night. I was in the ER at about 1 in the morning with my 4th case this year of pneumonia +UTI. A woman came in with a computer and, taking me off guard, she started talking at large about her experience of a doctor who didn't listen … Continue reading Angels Do Appear
Fatal lost email; a prayer to St Isadore
Oh Lord! In the fall of 2000, still the early days of email, I composed a long, poised email welcoming my mother and father home from their trip to Europe following a dinner in Texas honoring the Nobel Laureate, the incrinventor of the Inregrated Circuit. My father gave the Keynote Addtess. Well i finished it … Continue reading Fatal lost email; a prayer to St Isadore
2009
Smooth move, Cameron. This is a teaser for my book, which might not come out for another year or more. So, when he was chasing me around the house trying to get me to give him my son's birth certificate so that he could file for rite of abode in the UK; and insisting that … Continue reading 2009
Yellow Butterfly
Well I was sitting in the garden outside the conservatory, smoking a cigarette; pondering the mysteries. I saw a yellow butterfly flying up high in the trees; not a common sight here. I used to see them in Florida. Here, it reminded me that I am above the animals; specifically, the cats. I have been … Continue reading Yellow Butterfly
Update
Starting a new med tomorrow that I have been waiting on for 3 weeks. It was approved this morming by my insurance. In the meantime everything is coming out in the wash, i've realized that my mother hated me for being born. She loved her son, her firstborn, and i came too soon after. She … Continue reading Update
Un.Bon.Mot 