My brother has committed suicide. It's been 4 1/2 months now. We cant get over it. For me, it justifies a lot of things. I was the one who was always attemping suicide. 5 tries. Then, suddenly, this. I didn't know what to think. I finally realized that my patents were feeling desperately guilty. And … Continue reading Justified
Diet crisis
My mother is creating an uproar over the current status here pursuant to my being up all night off my psych med Clozaril. Meawhile i am seeing an underlying crisis that is really evil. Over the last month or two i have suddenly gained 10 pounds over taking the diabetes medicine Metformin. I started trying … Continue reading Diet crisis
Living a Disabled Life
My current psychiatrist is severely physically disabled. He is a hunchback I am taking an example from him about how to live the disabled life socially. I am severely physicslly disabled by my sexual injury. It is a psychosexual disability that people pick up on right away. People here are usually pretty nice to me. … Continue reading Living a Disabled Life
Word to the wise
Its about my ex-sister÷in-law. I cant name her. I just need to rip her face off, that's all. My brother has died. The situation here.is that she is back in touch with my mother. I have guessed--my intuition and surmises tell me--that they are trying to get together and try to implicate me as the … Continue reading Word to the wise
Whole New Day
Well yesterday i wrote that i was trusting my father again; well on some things, yes; but i opted OUT of trusting him on the moment with the restaurant owner i worked for in high school. He was protecting himself! Because the denouement if the incident at the restaurant included my running away from home, … Continue reading Whole New Day
Time Out
I am coming here to take a break from a To The Wall situation prevailing since dinner out on Tuesday night. Tonight is Thursday night. I separated the casts for 2 nights; today they are back together and both with me. They are keeping the fighting to a minimum. It was awful, so dire, for … Continue reading Time Out
A Letter To Planned Parenthood
FYI The Parts of a Terrorist (2012-09-13 05:42) First, immaturity, then, inability to love. From this is quickly playedthe desire for glory; then, brainwashing.They take something familiar, something dear, trusted, to lead you.Then, they teach you not to fear by scaring you half to death in every part—then pulling back just in time—and you are an initiate, a … Continue reading A Letter To Planned Parenthood
Feline
When they're happy, im happy. Travis and Tanner. They belong to my son. I was getting irritable with them until i realized it hurt their feelings when i walked right by them without paying them any attention. And how much they do that pleases me and helps me. So, if things get tense i pray … Continue reading Feline
Trump
After posting here about the National Emergency i received a letter from the RNC asking for a vote of support and funds. The latter i dont have, i sent a check for 5 dollars. I fell all over myself checking boxes. It was kind of silly. Next thing i know Donal Trump is slashing Social … Continue reading Trump
Motivational problem
Here i am, upstairs in the cottage on a winter day, with the space heater on hi next to my old fashioned wing chair. one cat on the bed beside me and the other underneath it: Tanner and Travis. They are constantly fighting over the attention they get from me and so it is now. … Continue reading Motivational problem
Un.Bon.Mot 