Hallelujah

Last night I went to be without taking my bedtime medications. After a brief moment of sheer terror, I embraced the day, and it has proved through the watershed of my brother's suicide. The denouement is that I finally understood that my first psychiatrist--"CHILD psychiatrist!" I always said-- was right in putting me on an … Continue reading Hallelujah →

Partial Hospital Program

The sleeping continued after my last post and the following Sunday--a eeek and a day ago--i went to the ER in Reading again. I was feeling desperate about the situation with staying here in my parents home. All that has changed. The social worker at the ER turned me down for a bed but offered … Continue reading Partial Hospital Program →

Cutthroat–silly of me

There's a woman here who has the better of me through the men. Something went down about a "gang bang." She was standing talking to little J., who isn't here any more, i just realized. And i walked in. Their eyes were locked. Then he turned to me. In the end something was said about … Continue reading Cutthroat–silly of me →

Icarus

When I was too young i flew too close to the sun, and my wings of wax melted. I was dancing with my father, not knowing what else to do. I crashed and burned, Here i am on the smoking porch of a personal care boarding home 35 years later, awash in the embers of … Continue reading Icarus →