...is that there isn't a salient quality. More so that among whites, every black person is unique, shaped by tragic incidents in the past or multifarious family backgrounds and decades of having to suppress HATRED towards the people who are trying to help them, some knowing how and some not. I realized a long time … Continue reading One last note on black/white politics; my father
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How do you honor parents who don't want to be honored by you? it's a fatal conondrum.
okay okay okay
last year, before the last year that I spent in the hospital, my father, who was in a strange state after losing my mother, was puttIng me through little poisonings, generally of take-home fast food. Once I woke up in the middle of the night with diarrhea and i heard him say t o me … Continue reading okay okay okay
aliens can be fragile containers too
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About My Father
My favorite dream when I was a little girl, the most special, was the Purple Throne Dream. The Throne was distant; magnificent. Where I was, near the Throne, at the bottom of the ocean, was a case full of pearls, rubies and other jewels, half buried in the sand. This 2as me and my father … Continue reading About My Father
End of Blog
For reasons of personal security I am shutting this blog down.
Portal
I wrote a story about Adam and sent it off to Barbara after my son was born and we had moved, in a panic, from Buffalo to Germantown, Maryland. We started out in California on a farm managers house on an orange ranch. The rroom where our son would have stayed was filled full of … Continue reading Portal
Old book projects d/c’d
"Every Cloud," a book project that had me for so long, i have discontinued, set aside, abandoned, after this mention i will never again bring it to mind. It led to a serious suicide attrmpt and a bankruptcy. Since then, my brother effectively commited suicide. The book project kept me alive in the most visceral … Continue reading Old book projects d/c’d
Change to “Hello”
Well, since I wrote that a week ago I have been through an abysmal time. Hangover from the holidays + life catching up with me from long ago. Its a good thing. Solving some huge problems; and my mind is telling me that things will be easier from now on. My son in my mind … Continue reading Change to “Hello”
Hello
Hello! I am returning after a long absence. I have been progressing in my psychotherapy and religion toward a much better place. You will find that my style has greatly changed and will continue to evolve with a total reworking of my mental structures from abysmally complicated (before) to dynamic and complex (now). My psych … Continue reading Hello
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