Writing my way out of my blog

With my baptism on Satuday comes a restoration of old faith and, unbelievably, faith enough to declare my old vocation, which is to write.I never really stopped but for a while i couldnt even write a check. Because of the medication I was taking, Tegretol, the sound and feel of the pen touching the paper … Continue reading Writing my way out of my blog →

Praying to St Joseph

I suffered a quiet suicide on Wednesday. I had been penned in since my "birthday dinner" on Sunday evening at a nice restaurant nearby which took SEVERAL nasty turns. My son was there which made it beautiful. But the g-rents lost it on rhe way hone after several inappropriate incidents. They say beggars cant be … Continue reading Praying to St Joseph →

Gotcha

My father was leaning over this way trying to grab ahold of me to hold against my mother and i refused him. Thats how it played out all these years. Im back at tbe dump looking to pick out a different life. I still remember that day in small town New Jersey south of Manhattan. … Continue reading Gotcha →

Retroactive Emancipation

Retroactive emancipation is perfect because it happens by law at 16. That's when i ran away from home. They left me at the house in NJ alone when they went on a two week hiking trip in New England. My brother took the station wagon and went to his girlfriend's house and i hadnt gotten … Continue reading Retroactive Emancipation →

Grounding

This blog is a good place to come to for grounding. When the shit is getting too thick and i cant see in front of me, I make time to come here and the ground opens up in front of me. What a day. It was a struggle to get out of bed, but once … Continue reading Grounding →

Freak Out

I am being kicked out if this place on the sourest of terms, and my blogging here is the biggest part of it. I consider this blog entirely safe and would not be doing it if it compromised anybody here, i have cone here to vent and keep my tboughts straight. My care coordinator got … Continue reading Freak Out →

Rocky Road

What a relief to have my blog to come back to! Its a small thing but its been a constant in my life for 8 years now. And what a long, strange trip its been. I am fighting off feelings of despair today, feelibgs i havent had since high school. For a moment i thought … Continue reading Rocky Road →

Roommate Woes–updated

I tried to get the day alone because partial hospital program was so hard yesterday and my neck and back and who knows what else were spasming last night and I woke up with bad pain. Well at least they are going to get me to the doctor as of this morning's report. So i … Continue reading Roommate Woes–updated →

Drained

My job this past weekend was to rest but i was drawn to blog for about 7 hours on Saturday. Too much happenrd in my mind, the cart started to push the horse so i had better stop before i hate my blog. Posting from a cellphone is tricky, it helps you pay careful atterntion … Continue reading Drained →

Repentance

I come upon a place very different from what I thought. The Lord wont take me back to where i was early this morning where i saw my son and his suffering and how he felt about my book and my blogging. I caught a glimpse of it and then it was gone again. I … Continue reading Repentance →