if you could see our eyes…

i am looking luke the usual depraved idiot i was because of the wart-mole thing on my face and the damage from being kneed in the crotch by him. He is looking straight ahead with loathing and disgust for me. was this the time that i went collectung fish guts from the river on a … Continue reading if you could see our eyes… →

Angels, cats, and aliens

some things we don't dare say. but then we do. I am now officially in retirement from the worst and hardest fights of my life and seeing the forest for the trees. fighting abortion it's like when the Berlin Wall fell. but we are still fighting. but it was like seeing the dove and knowing … Continue reading Angels, cats, and aliens →

Love

I have a saying that I got through my psychotherapy in Florida; I don't know whether he said it to me, well, as I understand things now I do know that therapists and others do talk to us in our heads. He said to me, "Love is not a game or a joke." I said … Continue reading Love →

Remark

23 years ago I did a stupid thing. I sent a letter to an old friend with some photographs and used a nasty word about a group of people in my life. "Barracudas," I think that that was it. There was some nasty stuff going on at Harvard when I was there over Men's clubs, … Continue reading Remark →

Betrayal

I finally found out that my sister seduced my husband. I always knew she dissed me to him. So, she never knew it but for that reason I dissed her to her old boyfriend's sister--the one who "ate condiments for food"--when we were out on the patio smoking that Thanksgiving that his family came here … Continue reading Betrayal →

Brothers death “altruistic”

When i was seeing Sister Marie for baptismal counseling, about 2 years ago, i had a concern that caused me to ask my father to step in. It was a sexuality issue that i didn't t know how to resolve. My father said that would be "altruistic" for him to get involved. As if that … Continue reading Brothers death “altruistic” →

Brother

Check out Trading My Sorrows by Guy Penrod. Awesome. My brother is talking to the me, so he must be in HEAVEN, because people in Hell cant reach the living. And, from now on, that's all I have to worry about--getting into Heaven! Everything else falls into place. Allelujah! Amen.

Justified

My brother has committed suicide. It's been 4 1/2 months now. We cant get over it. For me, it justifies a lot of things. I was the one who was always attemping suicide. 5 tries. Then, suddenly, this. I didn't know what to think. I finally realized that my patents were feeling desperately guilty. And … Continue reading Justified →

Visit from my Sister

Well! I havent been here for well over a month. My book has 48 pages si far and i am roughing in headers. My sister and her husband are here fir tge weekend and the proof of the Holy Spirit has shown itself. I saw my sister and my mothers closeness and that there was … Continue reading Visit from my Sister →

Rage

As i walk away from my brother's dearh which OF COURSE was accidental because he didnt realize what he was doing when he jumoed off that cliff, he had a silly idea in his mind--thats the sad truth. All he needed was career counseling. My fathet and my ex husband are SLIME. He was CRYING … Continue reading Rage →