Today I was very drowsy all day long, more so than I would have expected after returning to Clozaril after just a week or less off of it. I just forced myself up off the bed (it is 7:48 p.m.) to get up and come here to post And I will stay awake until at … Continue reading Today
Tag: Clozaril
Clozaril
It's a miracle drug for people like me with "toxic brain syndrome"--who have been run through the mill with every kind of anti-psychotic medicine and anti-anxiety medicine and anti-epileptic medicine and other psych meds--from one doctor after another and on one psych ward after another. Well, that is my profile. I've been one of the … Continue reading Clozaril
Inventory
In the wake of a terrible overdose Thanksgiving 2016, I wound up being seen at New Vitae Wellness and Recovery in Quakertown, PA for 2 1/2 years after being a resident at the associated personal care boarding home for 3 months. After extricating myself from that practice, I am here to give a rave review! … Continue reading Inventory
The real truth; word to the wise; 1
Tapering off Clozaril; resuming a tricyclic anti-depressant after 25 years After 4 months, my whole life is falling back into place. A MIRACLE is happening. No, I was not suicidal at Harvard in Fall 1982 when my roommates complained to the senior tutor and he marched me over to community mental health services. When I … Continue reading The real truth; word to the wise; 1
Stressing
Tonight I drop another 50 mg Clozaril, from 150 mg at bedtime to 100 mg, 50 mg in the a.m. I am reviewing my stresses. I have cut my smoking from 10 to 15 cigarettes a day to 3 to 6; unfortunately i do not have the same success with my weight. I have gained … Continue reading Stressing
Med Change
I am getting off Clozaril and adjusting to Nuplazid, a very new, "newer" antipsychotic med. This has been going on for about 4 weeks. So, I havent been posting. TO THE WALL with mental, physical, and emotional stress. But the Lord is leading me through. My thoughts are reorganizing and reorienting. I feel like a … Continue reading Med Change
Angels Do Appear
My life took a strange new turn last night. I was in the ER at about 1 in the morning with my 4th case this year of pneumonia +UTI. A woman came in with a computer and, taking me off guard, she started talking at large about her experience of a doctor who didn't listen … Continue reading Angels Do Appear
Panic at the doctors office
He is late and there is another fellow ahead of me What to do? I hear him coming out of his office. I just confessed to the receptionist that 39 years ago I "got the shit ripped out if me" for being 5 minutes late to a 10 minute psychiatrist appointment. Ever since then ive … Continue reading Panic at the doctors office
Hallelujah
Last night I went to be without taking my bedtime medications. After a brief moment of sheer terror, I embraced the day, and it has proved through the watershed of my brother's suicide. The denouement is that I finally understood that my first psychiatrist--"CHILD psychiatrist!" I always said-- was right in putting me on an … Continue reading Hallelujah
County Access
Im at the County Services office in the nearby city getting ready to apply for a caseworker. Ive already gotten a dirty look. Im dressed to well to be receiving welfare. In the last week the full-on sunshine towards me in this vicinity has been abating. Im not getting NASTY looks but people arent falling … Continue reading County Access
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