Apology

I heard in my head last night that a genealogical search would show that I was not Jewish. That led me to feel so lost. I said to myself, and to my son in a text, "I got really pompous over thinking that I was a Jew but I'm suddenly realizing that maybe I'm not." … Continue reading Apology →

Report card on services from Planned Parenthood obtained in February of 1990.

I obtained an awake abortion procedure via vaccuum suction of the uterus. I was told there would be mild cramping. Instead it was unbearably painful. My problem wss that i felt ill with the pregnany, i was taking two psych meds that were dangerous in pregnancy, Haldol abd Tegretol. I was drinking alcohol regularly snd … Continue reading Report card on services from Planned Parenthood obtained in February of 1990. →

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I see hiw my father deliberately, in desperation, played up the beating my mother took and the state i fell into after the overdose as an intractable illness requiring endless further hospitalization: i had started talking to them about the sexual abuse. He had a fragile new job in a new area, which he did … Continue reading More on Justice, Mercy →