It starts. The court case is closed. The rest of our lives finally begins. It comes down to the ectopic pregnancy. My mother went to the hospital on my fifth birthday, so it's easy to remember. She talked to my about it quite a bit and I do remember. She showed me the scar on … Continue reading Proactive Proliferation
Tag: Ectopic pregnancy
Feeling better
slept in until 10 after a large meal of red chicken Thai curry las5 night. It was exactly what I needed. I have been following the prompts and paying attention as to what to do to fix myself and finally I have left it all in the Lords's hands. This was ugly. moving forward with … Continue reading Feeling better
my son
my son has a brilliant education. He only has a year and a half of college. I am not allowed to name the schools he attended as he would prefer to keep that private, but he attended two excellent private schools in Florida (he had to quit one because of the eye injury for reasons … Continue reading my son
my mama
my mother was like a mama alien. I loved her with all my heart. there was such a sorrow to it. because for all practical purposes she died to me when she went to the hospital for the ectopic pregnancy on the day of my 5th birthday. I remember the loneliness I felt standing on … Continue reading my mama
Difficult Sister Act
my sister just wound up her Ph.D. that's been going along in the background for a couple of years. Claire does not like me. Claire likes to use me. And people love to support her in this. Even during the going on 29 years that I was a desperate mother. They joke about me. it's … Continue reading Difficult Sister Act
Fearfully and wonderfully made
Abortion stinks. Its the worst thing. The Lord tells us we are "fearfully and wonderfully made." (Psalm 139:14--1.) My mother didnt respect this. She blamed me for her ectopic pregnancy when I was 5 years old. Or, that was what it felt like. She went to the hospital for it on my 5th birthday, and … Continue reading Fearfully and wonderfully made
Live at catholic.com
I am in for prayers and support at catholic.com on this very special night. when the very best is coupling with the very worst in my life as various threads come together to create a major life moment. I will soon be baptised and confirmed. Â I will be able to take the Eucharist and I … Continue reading Live at catholic.com
My mother reinterpreted
My mother is an uneducated woman surrounded by HIGHLY educated, even POWERFUL women through her marriage to my father and for other reasons that i have to admit i dont really understand. She is endearing. Surely that isnt enough to let her make a hatchet job out of everyrhing i ever tried to do with … Continue reading My mother reinterpreted
Safety
51 years later, its finally hitting. Im going to have to rework my book.  I noted yesterday on the last page of the printout if the manuscript, "i just realized that Tracey T (not her real name) was the breaking point of the ectopic pregnancy."  A short while later i found my way to tbe … Continue reading Safety
Ectopic Pregnancy
Somewhere in all this posting i neglected to record the moment where my mother's ectopic pregnancy came true. She banished it from memory all her life but we have all lived with it. In the post "Sick Today" i recorded The place where she grabbed at my soul, and the nightswatchman caught me there unprotected … Continue reading Ectopic Pregnancy
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