JOY–as it should have been

...and so m etimes that's the only way it can be. These are such crazy mixed up times we live in. These pictures tell the story all by themselves. Alex. With a crossbow. I don't know exactly what they look like but I know he usd to have one. I give him a little but … Continue reading JOY–as it should have been →

About Adam

My father runs me. I used to be horribly concerned about this because of my sexual immaturity and his. Friend Robyn in Florida showed me and ex husband Alex that "everybody is a pervert!" lol!!!. He said he and his automechanic buddies cracked weird jokes all day long at the shop. We were all totally … Continue reading About Adam →

Sorry

Im sorry for all the people I hurt because of my sick sexual and emotional problems I had a bunch of human rights issues to solve in the MH world, race matters and the abortion industry. Also, I had a beautiful family to go to one day, a lovely husband and a son to raise. … Continue reading Sorry →

Egg yolks

OMG im so sorry. I apologized to the community last night; but it wasnt enough. I need to explain myself. About the overdose, not in 2016. But the one in 2014 (?) (2015?) When I was living in South Allentown. My father had moved me there against my wishes. I had wanted to move to … Continue reading Egg yolks →

The British Royalty

Underlying everything else that is going here is the effects of a long ago love affair in Britain in the 1940s. It was one of many reasons that I was held at Harvard despite everything. For reasons of Society. Which I wont belabor here. But, the sad fact is that, in the 2010s, at our … Continue reading The British Royalty →

Drugs

That's what it comes down to. My brother, who has died, said that I was the worst drug addict he knew. Since I was 21 I have been the victim of a thrall with psych meds misprescribed. It was a 3 part question. First, the prescriver was not competent to treat me 2 times over … Continue reading Drugs →

Connecting the Dots; updated

Well, its been a long time; but the water is finally well over the dam. Since Wernersville State Hospital in Berks County. PA, from a situation in 1988; where they didnt know me and I was held on a bunch of lies that I didnt even know. Then, I spent 2 years here in semi-recovery; … Continue reading Connecting the Dots; updated →

Re the cat Sasha

My father thinks that I need to know (for myself) what he thinks he needs to know to be a man. Towards this end, he is constantly punishing, teasing and twisting me. My sister, on the other hand, is perfect, sweet, a delight. They have a little romance. He likes to make that comparison. She … Continue reading Re the cat Sasha →

Talking

Talked to an old friend last night. I haven't talked in years; ever. Dont know who to trust. My exhusband was one of the few NOT wordless people who was able to communicate with me. His French/German influenced Canadian with my Americanized British: he had learned as a youth in Europe how to be understood … Continue reading Talking →

Lies and Deception. Updated 8/10/2020 4:30 pm

This post was just updated: First of all, its about the rape at the beach when i was 13. When i was living here in my 20s, they (my parents) (world's worst friends to children) said to me, obliquely, "It happened when you were 13." A few years later--i was still living here-- i mentioned … Continue reading Lies and Deception. Updated 8/10/2020 4:30 pm →