Text to my son: "I didn't even see it; how this butterfly is granma, and she came to say goodbye to us. That she came to ME, to show ME, and everybody else that I LOVED HER, and she knew it. She just couldn't acknowledge it. Like, how to stay in fighting trim on a … Continue reading “Saying Goodbye”
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Eyes
Horrible eye injury My son, Tampa Bay Area, 2009, I took off for England against my will with a briefcase style safe full of my meds and without a shower. My husband threatened me with the dread word "Canada,"--if I didn't go to England to help us emigrate there (I possesses U.K. as well as … Continue reading Eyes
Sane
i am putting this back up today because everybody is making me mad. i wrote it a week ago, and then took it down the following morning: It comes upon me to write this post exposing my father's folly in his married and other personal life after about 6 1/4 years since a suicide attempt … Continue reading Sane
It all happened so fast
A paradigm shift. From Boston/Manhattan to Buffalo; 1982 to 1993. Englamerica to Canenglamerica. In 1978 I applied to Harvard, Princeton, Yale, Brown, Colgate, and a few other top Colleges. Yale had the sense to wait list me, after two questionable interviews. I got in everwhere else, on the strength of a phenomenal personal essay about … Continue reading It all happened so fast
Pnuemonia
My life has gpne to a place where things have no meaning. Pneomonia from breathing in the fine down from a leaky comforter . Ive been deathly ill for 8 days. Naturally my mother ignored me. Today at 400 i got up and went out to Dunkin Donuts just to get out of the housr. … Continue reading Pnuemonia
After 40 years, Hope
At "Hutton" University, not its real name--perhaps you can guess the real name --i became a Pharisee. It took time. But after the state hospital--i clearly remember the moment--i heard the words describing the requirements of a SUPREME COURT JUSTICE--that they must take care not only of the fact if propriety but also of every … Continue reading After 40 years, Hope
Family again?
Listening to the movie "Barry" in the backround about Barack Obama in NYC in the 80s and remembering glory days in the late 2000s when i was crucified for grandstanding pro-life over problack in the 2008 elections and afterward. I had made borh causes my battle cry up until that point. I was disabled and … Continue reading Family again?
Not safe
My brother has committed suicide. He flung hinself off a cliff in an exotic location. I am too sad to be angry. He leaves behind his 18 year old son. And all the rest if us. It is a watershed event. We heard the tragic news Thanksgiving morning. He had been missibg for a week. … Continue reading Not safe
The Damage
After seeing Sister M. today i have been in a long slow burn if refuting my own suspicions of sexual impropriety WITHOUT turnibg to somebody in authority--been there, done that; in the end i relied on a trusted voice in ny own thoughts to reassure me and overcame the long weekend of worry. OF COURSE … Continue reading The Damage
Overload
Well i posted here today, and i texted my son, and i emailed my ex and i didnt get a single reponse anywhere. I am so to the limit with tension and stress here with my parernts that i feel like im about to explode. All of a sudden the day was done and all … Continue reading Overload
Un.Bon.Mot 