I am a little confused, the Lord showed me i was in error over not letting Black Mr. E let Black Mr. C in front if him in line, thereby letting him in front of me. This happened last week and is still playing out. I was tired, and interpreted it as a racial play … Continue reading Interracial offense issue continues
Tag: Forgiveness
More on Justice, Mercy
I see hiw my father deliberately, in desperation, played up the beating my mother took and the state i fell into after the overdose as an intractable illness requiring endless further hospitalization: i had started talking to them about the sexual abuse. He had a fragile new job in a new area, which he did … Continue reading More on Justice, Mercy
Desperate
Everything is well here. I have a place in time and space. Now what i am sensing is freedom from the abortions and right away i am taken back in time. At the risk of my anonymity i need to mention Jim M., PhD in Psychology, and Dr. P.R., Psychiatrist, whose ill will towards a … Continue reading Desperate
Roommate Woes–updated
I tried to get the day alone because partial hospital program was so hard yesterday and my neck and back and who knows what else were spasming last night and I woke up with bad pain. Well at least they are going to get me to the doctor as of this morning's report. So i … Continue reading Roommate Woes–updated
Victory, Victory in Christ
Well one victory was long in coming, i had to learn about forgiveness, and my son helped me too: you can't control others, he pointed out. I was very afraid of giving over sexual territory becsuse of my history, but now I have "the new innocence, " and when the male resident B. got close … Continue reading Victory, Victory in Christ
Wow
Big things are in the pipeline. This morning I made up with the patient B. whom i mentioned in another post: he had a bad fall over the weekend so it was timely. I had forgiven him and repented if a bad attitude towards his clumsiness borne out if resentment. Thank God. On the way … Continue reading Wow
End of the Day
It has been a very funny day, funny strange. At the end if the day it comes back to my phone call with my mother. I called her after falling into a sin, thinking I would be safe, and then I wasn't. She got in a line about my shoes, akways a bone of contention … Continue reading End of the Day
Error
Im beating myself up over a banal and stupid error, fumbling with my cigzrette butt at the smoke extinguishing receptacle and dropping it on the ground, and i came here, only to be reassured thzt i haven't finally, really lost the thread--what i always live in fear of. No-- by my last post, "Error Message," … Continue reading Error
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