O Canada!

my ex-husband is Canadian-born. But he grew up on a Canadian military base in Germany. Through marrying me and staying with me he gained Anerican citizenship. So he is a Canadian-American dual national, I was already an English- American dual national. My son is a Canadian-American dual national through his father and being born in … Continue reading O Canada! →

Smoking

So, in late 1989, I was sitting in my mothers garage in the old house across the way here. It was filled wirh filth, overflowing with garbage. Dead flies, oil and gas fumes. A dead rat and a dead bird in the refrigerator along with some ginger ale. I was a fixture there. I wasnt … Continue reading Smoking →

Then, Bill

Then Bill comes into the scene, four years after the beating my mother took (i can finally say it--it was all hush hush.) He zeroed in on the likekihood of a green card marriage (for citizenship) and the "wild sex" was gravy. All i knew was that it took me 3000 miles away from them, … Continue reading Then, Bill →

Nightmare

My mother is frightening. As i came to post about her I was sidetracked by an email notification, which I don't usually get: it was her. I was coming here to post about a horrifying clarity I have cone to about my whole adult life, it is completely defined,from where i stand now, by the … Continue reading Nightmare →