in my father’s shadow

As a young girl I was a very ambitious being. I didn't realize that I was competing with my father for my mother's attention and the world's love. He was the James Bond of early IC. I was lost in a world of books and ideas, coffee, booze, and cigarettes, thinking myself a literary being … Continue reading in my father’s shadow →

moving along

This is today. At last i am on today. At least for one day. BROADLY SPEAKING. In other words, being in the moment. For the first time since third grade, when i picked up a book up off the table outside the classroom door. im learning for the first time. I used to rehearse my … Continue reading moving along →

Falling Out of Your Class in America; Part 2

I came here last night to post about something specific and then I lost it and forgot that I lost it. That is pretty endemic to this situation. Which is insanely complex. Hence the "Holy Mary, Queen of Stages" prayer. "Mother Mary, please continue to hold me and dovetail times and places broadly and minutely … Continue reading Falling Out of Your Class in America; Part 2 →

Who woulda thought…?

Well here i am en pointe at 57---who woulda rhought it? Im backvat "Hutton, " age 17, 1979. To do a kttle tidying and re "point"ing. Arrived on campus for rhe furst day of Freshman week withoutva a change of clirhes, landed at Kingston airpirt and asked directions ti get to the subway and from … Continue reading Who woulda thought…? →