When I was carrying Ian, I was looking forward to the moment of delivery, which I dreaded, and no further. I just needed to hold onto him long enough to get him safely out of my body so that he could live. Beyond that, I couldn't see an inch. I held it as distinct possibility … Continue reading Reprieve
Tag: Miracle
behar
Ian, He's the doctor in Quakertown who gave me a run for my money since late 2017.I remember the first time I saw him. He is a hunch back with a slightly distorted face. He has a hugebelly and wears wide suspenders to hold up his pants. He is not tall. The moment I sat … Continue reading behar
The real truth; word to the wise; 1
Tapering off Clozaril; resuming a tricyclic anti-depressant after 25 years After 4 months, my whole life is falling back into place. A MIRACLE is happening. No, I was not suicidal at Harvard in Fall 1982 when my roommates complained to the senior tutor and he marched me over to community mental health services. When I … Continue reading The real truth; word to the wise; 1
Miracle Day
I have been tapering off Clozaril, a powerful antipsychotic med; and adjusting to Nuplazid, a very gentle new antipsychotic med intended for Parkinsonian patients. It is very expensive and had to be approved by my insurance. I'm not sure whether it was my strange, Parkinsonian-like condition that made the doctor think of it for me, … Continue reading Miracle Day
Another message: brief
Dear Sister M., Through my interactions with you, including finally the baptism, i am healing if tbe bizarre sexual condition that plagued me all my life. More on this later. 2 minutes later: The bizarre mental OCD that started eith imoroperly taking the Tegretil and Haldol in 1987 is clearing. Tbis is incredible. My current … Continue reading Another message: brief
Retroactive Hope
God is putting crazy good things in the past where all hope was gone. Its crazy how he can do this. They say you cant change the past well then what is the word "retroactive" for? The oast lives within us and can be touched at any time. The Lord fixed the worst place in … Continue reading Retroactive Hope
Interesting Day: Medjugorge revisited
I brought up Medjugorge at dinner (its been over two weeks since my encounter with the proselytizer at the ER psych intake.) There was a healing of the sexual abuse by my father. He insulted me twice at dinner; i walked away. i got up frim dinner, left my plate and my cup on the … Continue reading Interesting Day: Medjugorge revisited
Hutton Reunion
On a brighter note it looks like i will be able to go to the 35th reunion this year. I havent made it to a single high school or college reunion all my life. I was a regular writer in to the Hutton red book which comes out every 5 years at reunion time for … Continue reading Hutton Reunion
Hallelujah
Leaving this place in an hour. As i say my goodbyes, make paths straight in the Lord and finish packing, it just dawned on me that my son has come to faith. He is living in a setting like this wbere it is natural to speak of God, and be did so to me in … Continue reading Hallelujah
Humdinger of a Day Today
Well i went to sleep immediately after an awesome smoke break last night. I quietly held my place. "Sit tight" i heard my sons voice saying to me in my mind over and over. "Youre the same as anybody else." I went to the sexual malfeasance i threw off of myself from back in the … Continue reading Humdinger of a Day Today
Un.Bon.Mot 