slept in until 10 after a large meal of red chicken Thai curry las5 night. It was exactly what I needed. I have been following the prompts and paying attention as to what to do to fix myself and finally I have left it all in the Lords's hands. This was ugly. moving forward with … Continue reading Feeling better
Tag: Mother
Home, Sweet Home
I worked about about 12 hours straight yesterday cleaning this place out, starting with ripping up the rugs. I thought I wouldnt be able to handle the soap and water phase but so far it's staring off well. here are some pics of the place 50% free of dirt, germs and odors. With cats and … Continue reading Home, Sweet Home
Domino; email to my son
Ian, I suddenly see this whole, lifelong situation clearly. Frank and Grandad came over here to the United States on a honeymoon on a lark. At least, that was what Grandma thought. Grandad told me he knew he wanted to stay in America. People always confided in me. I was like a receptacle for secrets, … Continue reading Domino; email to my son
Remark
23 years ago I did a stupid thing. I sent a letter to an old friend with some photographs and used a nasty word about a group of people in my life. "Barracudas," I think that that was it. There was some nasty stuff going on at Harvard when I was there over Men's clubs, … Continue reading Remark
Sorting it out
Well today has been a watershed day, I believe it is called a red letter day; yesterday was the watershed. All of my issues, having been pared and pruned in my book for many months and then laid aside; came together in my mind in a glorious denouement after setting the book aside to "percolate" … Continue reading Sorting it out
Red alert
I funalky "have* the situation here. I was a disciplinary problem for both my mother and my teachers when i was a girl. I was emotionally blind and non-responsive, progressively dull and insensitive because if the being kneed in tbe crotch. I was a pervert. But i was extremely imtelligent. My father, who had his … Continue reading Red alert
Horse
Im finally getting it all figured out. My life in my family since i was 28 years imd has been dictated entirely by tbe death if my sister's horse. This is exactly as crazy as it sounds. They got a backhoe to BURY HER ON THE PROPERTY. (The horse, not my sister.) (Did i mention … Continue reading Horse
Pride
Reading C.S. Lewis, "Mere Christianity." It is an absolutely fabulous book. In it i find ALL my father's faith and life issues laid out (he has agreed to read it when im done) and my faith life is laid out on the table like a dissected frog. I just read the chapter on Pride as … Continue reading Pride
Trial Home Visit: At Home
Well i havent made my home here since the late 80's so its funny to call it home. I identified that i have a purpose here, which is to regain control of my sons life: they took control when they got the ridiculous restraining order in 2000. It permitted me to live at home with … Continue reading Trial Home Visit: At Home
“Pissed” off
A male resident just pissed in front of me outside the smoking porch. I wasnt looking and then i turned around and got an eyeful. I am very upset. I have been struggling all morning with a post that wouldn't come out right so i finally ditched three posts and im starting from scratch. On … Continue reading “Pissed” off
Un.Bon.Mot 