It has been a very funny day, funny strange. At the end if the day it comes back to my phone call with my mother. I called her after falling into a sin, thinking I would be safe, and then I wasn't. She got in a line about my shoes, akways a bone of contention … Continue reading End of the Day
Tag: Mother
Ectopic Pregnancy
Somewhere in all this posting i neglected to record the moment where my mother's ectopic pregnancy came true. She banished it from memory all her life but we have all lived with it. In the post "Sick Today" i recorded The place where she grabbed at my soul, and the nightswatchman caught me there unprotected … Continue reading Ectopic Pregnancy
Sick Today
Doing penance for going off on my roommate yesterday (In my mind, but i can tell she felt it) over her getting on the phone when i was desperate to pray. I talked about it in my last post. I woke up in a BAD way this morning and finally understood that that was where … Continue reading Sick Today
Oh My Soul
I see my whole life like an ocean of woe, but its a sunny day, and thete ate a few seagulls to delight. Im letting it all go. Challenging my mother, finally, felt different from what I thought. I called her to see if she was planning to come to visit and she was not … Continue reading Oh My Soul
Sister
Now my sister is what's up on the smoking porch. Through chance associations we fell upon her husband who grew up on a bus in South central Florida with 9 other kids. I cant say any more without clearly revealing his identity. You really did it this time sister. I'm not really sure how that … Continue reading Sister
Error Message
I'm getting an error message, and i worry its over breaking off with my mother. I see so clearly that it should be done according to practical psychological wisdom but sonewhere in the fairytale landscape of our relatioship i fear i am erring. I just came to a place where i pissed someone off and … Continue reading Error Message
Un.Bon.Mot 