my mother

I don't know what to think. does he want to get rid of me so she can come back? Whether here or somewhere else? he says he wants me to stay but he doesn't act like it, he goes out to lunch with his friends and makes jokes about me, I know that he does. … Continue reading my mother →

Most important email of my life

Two emails to my mother Well this is actually the second most important. The first one was one that I accidentally dumped when email was still new and not so finely crafted, and I was welcoming the 'rents home from Europe after their trip there following after a dinner in Texas to honor the … Continue reading Most important email of my life →

Nightmare

My mother is frightening. As i came to post about her I was sidetracked by an email notification, which I don't usually get: it was her. I was coming here to post about a horrifying clarity I have cone to about my whole adult life, it is completely defined,from where i stand now, by the … Continue reading Nightmare →

Attitudes and Personalities

Well so far im fouling out on the separate smoke breaks. I keep uncontrollably craving one at the regular smoke brrak times. At 4 i almost got caught on the way in by big J, although i had higher ground while i was smoking i had to cross near the smoking area to get rid … Continue reading Attitudes and Personalities →