moving on

grqa What a day! My life has turned around on an apex I could never have seen coming. My son is talking. I had a horrible life up until his age, when I met his father. Then although it felt horrible it was beautiful. I thought I had the most beautiful mother in the world … Continue reading moving on →

the truth at last

my mother is still living. they went their separate ways. it is no business of mine. but some aspects of the situation are. for 2 1/2 years I have not been told when everyone else knew. today I had the weirdest sense that I was communicating with her about how you have to clean up … Continue reading the truth at last →

so…

it's finally come down to this. I knew it all my life. My father had problems he couldn't solve. I knew it as a little girl when I tugged at his sleeve trying to get attention from him. I knew it when he called me up at the Lodge Program at Wernersville State Hospital askng … Continue reading so… →

Fear

Everyone here lives in fear of my mother. We do a dance for her. Even the cats. She is mentally ill and dangerous. I am praying for Jesus to find her and lead her to seek treatment for her lifelong illness. Instead of seeking refuge in mine.

Teeth yanked

Just got 3 teeth yanked. It hurt but it felt good because they were bad teeth. I was clenching my pelvis, because the pain goes right through it. Now im sitting on the couch in rhe cottage spitting blood and saliva into tissues. This is the one time the extra spit from the medication Clozaril … Continue reading Teeth yanked →

Nasty; 3

I am noone. I am nowhere. Just another sinner. The good thing about me is that i love my son and Satan and my mother interfered with that today. So its back to praying for the intervention of King Solomon the Wise. I have this.

Asking my ex-Husband to ask me to marry him

I emailed him on my cell phone for hours. It is a precision craft postung to my blog or emailing my ex or even textibg my son on this phone. Usually if its really mpoortant or deep i get the worst neck and back ache. Usually i rough it out and then go back and … Continue reading Asking my ex-Husband to ask me to marry him →

Eye Surgery

All bets are off until noon. My mother is having cataract surgery. Its very difficult. My moving in here fell in the midst if both parents having surgery on both eyes. It seems im always an inconvenience to my mother and father. Trying to resolve this. My father bought me a new laptop yesterday, and … Continue reading Eye Surgery →

New life at a personal boarding care home

So yes, in answer to my question, it is sometimes an imperative TO go out fir a cigarette. I wasn't sure. That was my pain. I was meant to go out there and take that as a warning. I thought I could post about my experience of Black America but now that I'm in the … Continue reading New life at a personal boarding care home →