Trap

It's one thing if I get myself into a sick trap, I can handle it. My brother and I practiced this when we were young. I do NOT want to be responsible for putting my old friend A in one. Please understand this. My father had guilt issues over not being a soldier in WWII. … Continue reading Trap →

Sick Work

This is sick work, but it has to be done. Now that I have been able to relinquish the pitiable condition with which I have been enmeshed in the WORST SUFFERING since I was in my late 20's, I can turn my focus to the cause I planned to pick up two years ago, along … Continue reading Sick Work →

Eerie today

me today This is me. A lot of the time. My head hangs. Rather poetically in so many ways. I'll admit it. Its poetic justice on me sometimes. For the people who I stepped on not realizing that it would come back to me. I didn't really understand what was going on. That is what … Continue reading Eerie today →

hints and memories

i remember sitting n my bed in high school boarding school) eating candy from the machine, and being in SO MUCH PAi h i have finally figured this out. it was like an overwhelmingly intense ache, an unbearable feeling of absence... OBVIOUSLY, I had had an abortion just as i thought. Dunno about the timing … Continue reading hints and memories →

Neck and spine injury

everybody is lying. heres a bit of hard core dispute. so, i drove to the hospital ER myself in Florida in the mid 2000s with my head pulling down to my left shoulder and got treated afterwards at Morton plant Orthopaedic center by dr Raphael Schwartz ( cant remember the name for sure; my mother … Continue reading Neck and spine injury →

denouement

alien invasion. I stopped it. It was coming through me. I was so naive.. I understood from the outset that they could be good or bad just like Human beings on earth. But i am sure they are under God just like us. S8ck alien on the way to the hospital little figure in the … Continue reading denouement →

Arriving at Conclusions.

my father deserves a reprieve from anything he has said and done since Hopkins thst was questionable as he was disabled by the stroke and wasn't getting any help. Hopkins put my mother in chsrge and she didnt hsndle it appropriately.. it is hard to imagine how things could have happened differently as things went … Continue reading Arriving at Conclusions. →

paintakers

also known as "leaders in suffering,' I tried to put up a post about this last night but was prevented. I decided to let it go, but there were some things I hadn't said yet. it's about aliens; some don't like me to talk about this. Was there to fix. but i cut a deal … Continue reading paintakers →

To Claire

After 34 years I am able to address the fallout of my healing on the Lodge Program psych unit at Wernersville State Hospital where I stayed 2 separate times from 1987 until 1988. Something happened there that I didnt understand. I was deathly ill when I got there. The pain--which I can now connect to … Continue reading To Claire →

behar

Ian, He's the doctor in Quakertown who gave me a run for my money since late 2017.I remember the first time I saw him. He is a hunch back with a slightly distorted face. He has a hugebelly and wears wide suspenders to hold up his pants. He is not tall. The moment I sat … Continue reading behar →