Missing cat; brother’s suicide

Well he was spotted near the barn today. Which turns around two weeks of horrible anxiety. My mother kept saying she would like to find the body so that we would know what happened. My brother recently successfully committed suicide so that's where her mind was at. I happened to know--because he was living over … Continue reading Missing cat; brother’s suicide →

Hutton Reunion–no

Well i really blew it. I mean, i did the right thing in tbe end, God showed me this morning what to do and i did it but that doesn't always make the path easier. My mother has been on a rampage since getting a visitor to heed her tears last week, she literally made … Continue reading Hutton Reunion–no →

Pride

Reading C.S. Lewis, "Mere Christianity." It is an absolutely fabulous book. In it i find ALL my father's faith and life issues laid out (he has agreed to read it when im done) and my faith life is laid out on the table like a dissected frog. I just read the chapter on Pride as … Continue reading Pride →

Sexual addiction

I didnt expect to be back so soon, it was gruelling to post that last post on a cell phone. The typos get insane. Once again the smoke shack unsettled me: Big J. of the size 16 (20?) shoes was out there alone. I lit up my cigarette.Then I realized he was making slight grunting … Continue reading Sexual addiction →