All of my life I have had terrible guilt over sexual feelings and conduct stemming from a physical injury. My brother kneed me in the crotch when i was just a little girl and I suffered a bad nerve in my clitoris all my life long. It generated dysphoria and misbehabior and disgrace. And I … Continue reading Terrible guilt
Tag: SEXUAL damage
Journey into Night
So theyre going out to dinner with friends with heavy words on their minds. I spoke to my father further about the sexual damage and asked hin for a response. I asked him to be accountable--to speak to the ussue. He said for now just let me write the check. I have 2016 back taxes … Continue reading Journey into Night
Today
...is the day after yesterday, the day to implement what yesterday said and i did! I talked to my father about my mother, Sister M the nun and Miss D the therapist. About the sexual damage. That as my father he should be the one man i can trust. And about needing "a bit of … Continue reading Today
Get it got it good
Got it I thought i had the masturbation problem down. No. Just prayed the Divine Mercy Chaplet TWICE, first on my 10 fingers out back as i watched the cats, then sung aloud--counted out on my rosary beads. My cats were pretty clear that i was crazy. I have lost the tonality of my singing … Continue reading Get it got it good
Fire under my butt
My mother fell on the 3 step stone stairway up to the atrium last night. She was coming to the cottage, where i was, to turn off the oil burning stove for the springtime. I helped her of course. But it triggered nasty memories that left me in an unpleasant frame of mind. She was … Continue reading Fire under my butt
SEXUAL INJURY
That's what my life comes down to. Nobody wants to go near it. Its not that they dont understand, they dont want to have anything to do with it. Like the girl in a car crash who talked about "self-cathing" and never came back, and the guy in one partial program who talked about his … Continue reading SEXUAL INJURY
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