prostitute

my father always made me feel like a prostitute. I recently joind the METOO movement for that and other reasons even today he comes looking for favors, he did it to me last night. In my head, when I was laying down in bed. It terrifies me to think that he would approach me physically … Continue reading prostitute →

Sister sister sister sister sister

the situation with my sister is lifelong but the recent epoch started when my father started enciuraging me --as an adult--to take cues from her and shortly afterward the image came to my mind of her in a prowling, feline, half- dressed stance, on a bed-- that just made me want to run. how that … Continue reading Sister sister sister sister sister →

Other sexual sins

So now that i have funally repented of the ENTIRE SIN of masturbation in my life, other, gentler sexual sins are presernt to me, from my childood--things that my mother should have corrected and didn't . Tbey arose out of my disability, from being kneed in the crotch by my brother; and how it was … Continue reading Other sexual sins →

Deepening Faith

Talked to my pstchiatrist about ny blessing sexual issues today. He is physically handicapped also so it will be interesting to see how this plays out, i am hoping for a blessing, a warm understanding. Anything else would be si cruel. I also told him of my deepening faith and he approached this withourmr a … Continue reading Deepening Faith →