Shift

I pray that Jo Biden will step in to force Hopkins to pay off the money owed as my understanding is that the lawsuit has NOT yet been filed and time could be short. This would satisfy so many needs. I intend to pay off residents and staff here and at the two hospitals as … Continue reading Shift →

my sister Claire once upon a time

it's like that with her. At one point I thought that of course we would be friends again some day. I sincerely believed that my mother kept us separated in a way that would end sooner or later. Looking back, I see that that was unrealistic. I took her for granted--a little bundle of love … Continue reading my sister Claire once upon a time →

segue; 1

Claire's inner being, the child within, the little girl I remember. She was very pretty, but this was her inner character. Right now it's the Ph.D.. it is also the "larval queen," so easily seen!

Fugue: my father, me, n my sister

cccv me on horseback once upon a time. Claire was a serious rider. THE END. While I was touching up THE END of my career as a "Performance Artist of the Psych Ward," Claire was proving through her Ph,D. In (?) Archaeology? We haven't talked much for a long time but this time we did … Continue reading Fugue: my father, me, n my sister →

About Georgia

First of all, there was another Lancastrian, another Lancastrian stalker, as I have said so many times. Barry from Harvard Square in the 80's. Or, was I the stalker? in both cases. my damaged sexuality was an issue. TODAY, I learned that in the case of Georgia in her native Allentown, the real issue all … Continue reading About Georgia →

To Claire

After 34 years I am able to address the fallout of my healing on the Lodge Program psych unit at Wernersville State Hospital where I stayed 2 separate times from 1987 until 1988. Something happened there that I didnt understand. I was deathly ill when I got there. The pain--which I can now connect to … Continue reading To Claire →

Sister Claire

I NEVER HAD A SINGLE THOUGHT OF HARM TO MY SISTER CLAIRE MURPHY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. Through being entirely deprived of proper care after she was born and moreover being asked to care for her, despite a severe handicap of being kneed in the crotch by my brother, I learned a life of service … Continue reading Sister Claire →

At The State Hospital

I have talked about Mark at the state hospital; I have talked about David at the State hospital. I never explained that they were friends. Also, significantly, that the girlfriend that had him in a thrall from high school that he blamed for his Illness and was probably the cause for his seducing women and … Continue reading At The State Hospital →

My sister, the end

In sorry dear, but I meant it when I made it over with you at the side of our mother's death bed. Obviously there needed to be a go-to for a new relationship but that didnt happen. Im over the rote, silly dance in our family where I was marked lame and not allowed to … Continue reading My sister, the end →

Betrayal

I finally found out that my sister seduced my husband. I always knew she dissed me to him. So, she never knew it but for that reason I dissed her to her old boyfriend's sister--the one who "ate condiments for food"--when we were out on the patio smoking that Thanksgiving that his family came here … Continue reading Betrayal →