About Smoking

Th Lord has said that my smoking is unguent and appealing to him. Apparently my lungs have cleared, are they even pink and clear again? (I had a CT scan recently recently per (purr!!!) my new dr. whom I just adore.) So, black people just love to smoke. They should get cigarettes for free. Like … Continue reading About Smoking →

Smoking

So, in late 1989, I was sitting in my mothers garage in the old house across the way here. It was filled wirh filth, overflowing with garbage. Dead flies, oil and gas fumes. A dead rat and a dead bird in the refrigerator along with some ginger ale. I was a fixture there. I wasnt … Continue reading Smoking →

Stressing

Tonight I drop another 50 mg Clozaril, from 150 mg at bedtime to 100 mg, 50 mg in the a.m. I am reviewing my stresses. I have cut my smoking from 10 to 15 cigarettes a day to 3 to 6; unfortunately i do not have the same success with my weight. I have gained … Continue reading Stressing →

Not going well

My turning over a new leaf here is not going well. I had a bad monent with the nighttime security guard that reminded me of how badly i was treated in my earlier stay here, and i had the feeling I wouldn't be able to let it go. And just now the two different men … Continue reading Not going well →

Attitudes and Personalities

Well so far im fouling out on the separate smoke breaks. I keep uncontrollably craving one at the regular smoke brrak times. At 4 i almost got caught on the way in by big J, although i had higher ground while i was smoking i had to cross near the smoking area to get rid … Continue reading Attitudes and Personalities →