Big J gave me a fist bump on the way in. I thanked him on the way out. In the interim, i got my cigarette and a light without a fight, i froze on a stuck place, listening to my son say to me in my mind, "God did that to you;" and after several … Continue reading Problem Solved on the Smoking Porch
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Christ’s Miraculous Provision
...was afforded within minutes if posting that last post. In the form of insight unravelling the tangled web. I remembered that i had just had my memory refreshed that Bruce was ex military. And i remembered the moment early on in our relationship when a woman who is no longer here verbally assaulted him on … Continue reading Christ’s Miraculous Provision
Not going well
My turning over a new leaf here is not going well. I had a bad monent with the nighttime security guard that reminded me of how badly i was treated in my earlier stay here, and i had the feeling I wouldn't be able to let it go. And just now the two different men … Continue reading Not going well
Jury Duty
After a day that was salvaged from a bad start to a lofty place, i am beached on a rocky shore with no help in sight. I got to the place where my mother had to give it over to my ex to let us be but then that clarity failed through my roommate usurping … Continue reading Jury Duty
Desultory Ending
Well i have to follow up to be honest. I aced the smoking porch at 9 a.m., having been primed since 6 a.m. i took no guff and walked out of there to rhe sound of church bells ringing. It was clear that i had to be there and thats why i had to miss … Continue reading Desultory Ending
Sunday morning
My guiding voices, in this case my son's, tell me not to go to Church this morning. I have LEARNED to follow these voices, following the example of St. Faustina and her 'internal promptjngs.' They're not 'voices' just a single word like 'no', or 'do' or 'do not.' Its odd but its been going on … Continue reading Sunday morning
Brawl on the smoking porch
They were all on me. I was about to call 911. Maybe i should have. Miss J (i promised not to use names) swore she didnt kniw what i was talking about when i called her on holding back the lighter shortly after i got here "Abby got burned," big J said, and i told … Continue reading Brawl on the smoking porch
Un.Bon.Mot 