in other words, words, Dad, Alex. he was so insecure about my male College associations. he was so way high above them as a husband and friend to me and Ian. as a Canadian he had the habits of an armchair intellectual. he had his flaws. But he had a few years on them. He … Continue reading About Dad
Tag: State hospital
The end of 37 years confusion
I heard from a dear, sweet, kind person who was helping my ex and some Arab friends he met to do the rewiring of the home, that very bright people can fall into years of confusion, and suddenly I see that it really is true and it really was what happened to me. Simple confusion. … Continue reading The end of 37 years confusion
All My Life
When I went to Wernersville State Hospital (You may check with them) I said to myself, or maybe to the room at large, that I wanted to be an instrument of God--like Mozart, like a flute. I realize now that that was the most important moment of my life. All these decades since then I … Continue reading All My Life
HUPOMONE
is a Greek word meaning patient endurance in suffering. A Greek word, but a Christian quality. Abt men's clubs at Harvard. and the movie, from the 90's about a black girl dancer who got raped by the star of the show and got the dress shop she wanted for the experience. Her white girl friend … Continue reading HUPOMONE
Dear Eliot
Dear Eliot, I use your first name only to avoid violate anybody's privacy. I just finally learned about LIMITATIONS. I was forming the idea of "acting out the soul of my childhood" which I may in some way or sense do. After acting out the soul of Auschwitz --which I did all my life. I … Continue reading Dear Eliot
Special
At the state hospital you had to get used to men who got into fights and men who had killed people. This made it very difficult to return to society. i was in such a fragile condition. I got used to it there in a while in a bad way, it corrupted me, I used … Continue reading Special
State hospital
they tagged me as the antiChrist when i left. there were some hardcore patients a bit older who said i looked like "someone who would kill people." That was my eyes. The "ghoul epiphany" from the torture in the ICU. Those two did something to me that I never got overd.r and the iProgram leader … Continue reading State hospital
Sometimes it takes a movie
Abt Harvard. I married a Canadian. It created a paradigm shift in my perennial path of finding England through the international community at Harvard-Radcliffe. Similarly, I had sought England in error through Kent School. I was so young and immature that somewhere in my mind I was going to England by going there. Because I … Continue reading Sometimes it takes a movie
bad on money matters
When I was about 12 one of my brother's "friends" broke into our house and stole a bunch of stuff. My father was in his bedroom sleeping, it was in the afternoon. He took my moneychanger--one of those clever contraptions that sorts coins. I had about 10 dollars worth of change in there. I felt … Continue reading bad on money matters
Mother Advocate Finally Rests
no more wars Actually this would be how I was AFTER I recovered from my stay at the Horsham Clinic last year, at that time I was the "core on two stilts, a face neither man now woman; and how the ALIEN4 (thats what I called him at the beginning) turned me into a flesh … Continue reading Mother Advocate Finally Rests
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