last year, before the last year that I spent in the hospital, my father, who was in a strange state after losing my mother, was puttIng me through little poisonings, generally of take-home fast food. Once I woke up in the middle of the night with diarrhea and i heard him say t o me … Continue reading okay okay okay
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The Spearhead
I have been the spearhead. There have been so many others like me. For instance, Sally. My second friend at Harvard. Colleen was the first. Anita was the third. But I have to admit that Sally was the most important. Then, we had a terrible falling out over the Advocate. I became "President of the … Continue reading The Spearhead
Tasering in South Florida
I was tasered in South Florida around 2010, before divorcing my husband there; and relocating here to PA. I dont have a whole lot to say about it any more other than what I have just said to my son. That it was not a lie. Similarly. The "de facto torturing" of the clamped catheter … Continue reading Tasering in South Florida
To Claire
After 34 years I am able to address the fallout of my healing on the Lodge Program psych unit at Wernersville State Hospital where I stayed 2 separate times from 1987 until 1988. Something happened there that I didnt understand. I was deathly ill when I got there. The pain--which I can now connect to … Continue reading To Claire
Sister Claire
I NEVER HAD A SINGLE THOUGHT OF HARM TO MY SISTER CLAIRE MURPHY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. Through being entirely deprived of proper care after she was born and moreover being asked to care for her, despite a severe handicap of being kneed in the crotch by my brother, I learned a life of service … Continue reading Sister Claire
Letter to my divorced husband
Subject:Wernersville State Hospital boyfriend Frank C. I just figured this after all of those years why we got together as we did.I had been dating Frank C. from Fleetwood, strictly no sex. He was a lovely man, a lot older, had spent some time at Villanova University. He was an Italian American person.I could never … Continue reading Letter to my divorced husband
Falling Out of Your Class in America; Part 2
I came here last night to post about something specific and then I lost it and forgot that I lost it. That is pretty endemic to this situation. Which is insanely complex. Hence the "Holy Mary, Queen of Stages" prayer. "Mother Mary, please continue to hold me and dovetail times and places broadly and minutely … Continue reading Falling Out of Your Class in America; Part 2
Daisy
I feel like Im coming out of the closet . Talking about the Kent Girls School on the "Hill Campus" on top of an Appalachian Mountain over the Housatonic River in Litchfield County, Connecticut. In the Valley was the beautiful, 100 year old Red Brick and ivy covered Boys School, I believe that the Girls … Continue reading Daisy
figuring out my life tonight
...and its about romance and marriage and when and where the two collide and when and where they don't. I realized today that all my life I was in a thrall of a romance not even knowing it. It was hidden inside another mainstream college romance that everybody knew about that failed badly, partly because … Continue reading figuring out my life tonight
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Ian, Today I am breaking through to a new level. I am recalling Magdalena. A woman at the state hospital, she was pure blonde, talked to herself all day long under her breath. She said she had a husband floating around somewhere in Germany. Or, she was from Germany. I cant remember.  She was a … Continue reading more on state hospital
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