At The State Hospital

I have talked about Mark at the state hospital; I have talked about David at the State hospital. I never explained that they were friends. Also, significantly, that the girlfriend that had him in a thrall from high school that he blamed for his Illness and was probably the cause for his seducing women and … Continue reading At The State Hospital →

Road Kill

Its about Dr. Gross in Allentown 24 years ago. He just didnt understand. He saw it about the sexual OCD because I was carrying on with a male patient who had just been pulled from the river. Generally that's who I picked on, VULNERABLE PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF. Also because I had written a story about … Continue reading Road Kill →

About the OCD

First of all, Its going. After 33 years. Going back to when I really started coming apart, at the Lodge Program at Wernersville State Hospital in Berks County, PA, in 1987, when I was 26. Years later, I became acquaintainted with the Catholic Universal Prayer by Pope Clement XI which is very long and exhaustive. … Continue reading About the OCD →

Prayers Proved Through

So, at the state hospital, WSH, at the end, on rhe Lodge Program ward, I was carrying on a lovely relationship with 3 men about my own age--mid 20s. We regularly ordered pizza and Greek salad from the Italian restaurant nearby in the highway at the end of the lane, using our workshop pay. For … Continue reading Prayers Proved Through →

Finale, 2

At the house in Summit, New Jersey, my little sister--8 years younger--told me she had a dream that she was drowning in mud. I took rhis very seriously as I was deeply engaged in ineffectually pursuing imaginary psychoanalysis based on the book, "August" that my psychotherapist had given me to read. It was about a … Continue reading Finale, 2 →

Connecting the Dots; updated

Well, its been a long time; but the water is finally well over the dam. Since Wernersville State Hospital in Berks County. PA, from a situation in 1988; where they didnt know me and I was held on a bunch of lies that I didnt even know. Then, I spent 2 years here in semi-recovery; … Continue reading Connecting the Dots; updated →

Dentist, updated

At the state hospital, the first time, after the nearly fatal overdose, I took a vow of poverty. I was so I was so impressed with the beauty of this place and the loving community out in rhe rural wilds beyond Reading, PA on the way to Lancaster. There was a beautiful old park; the … Continue reading Dentist, updated →

What About Me?!!!

There is old business here. Georgia of my last post was a special and beautiful and disturbed prson. There were several state hospital patients like that that I was extremely attracted to and one of them I made the WORST MISTAKE with. They were attracted to the Harvard thing and the Advocate President thing, not … Continue reading What About Me?!!! →

“Georgy Girl”

In the High School singing group we sang "Hey There Georgy Girl." We went to a state mental institution near the school to perform for a group of elderly patients. This was a foreshadowing of my trip to the Berks County State Hospital at Wernersvile in 1986, where I ran into trouble. During my third … Continue reading “Georgy Girl” →

Coffee

I mentioned in my last post about driving the PA roadways, back in the 80's in my Dodge Colt, drinking 10 large coffees and smoking "endless cigarettes." Well, there was a history to that. I remember drinking a couple of cups of coffee at the senior coffee house at boarding school, and totally freaking out … Continue reading Coffee →