Thete is a practical problem hete that needs to be solved. My mothet is flying to an end of the world scenario of putting me in the state hospitalk where there is a practical situation if my being provided for that doesnt warrant anhy such intervention. They are using somethinbh i said after the birthdy … Continue reading Practical Problem
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Invoking St. Isodore of Seville–updated
He is the patron saint of the internet and the likely saint of my present plight, I am hitting on the rocks of the injustice surrounding my assay into the world of artificial intelligence in an introductory programming course in college. In the fall of 1981 I created a program which generated 2-paragraph essays on … Continue reading Invoking St. Isodore of Seville–updated
for the record–updated
I can finally demonstrate that my mother has changed toward me in a way that prejudices her in making judgments in the cases and situations of my disability. She was good enough to call an ambulance when she found me a few hours from death after the overdose November two years ago; but she did … Continue reading for the record–updated
The Jeannie Problem
It used to be “The Tracey T Problem”–all these years that’s what i thought i was fighting. Youll find it in my book. “Every Cloud…” (when it comes out; still waiting on California, a Pro-Life Novel.”) I touched on “the Jeannie Problem” in passing–i thought–while trying to figure Tracey T. Now i see that Jeannie … Continue reading The Jeannie Problem
Get it got it good
Got it I thought i had the masturbation problem down. No. Just prayed the Divine Mercy Chaplet TWICE, first on my 10 fingers out back as i watched the cats, then sung aloud--counted out on my rosary beads. My cats were pretty clear that i was crazy. I have lost the tonality of my singing … Continue reading Get it got it good
Trial Home Visit
Its been a gruelling morning. Ever heard the expression, "it doesn't hurt to ask" ? "They can only say no"? My father lives to defy it. I asked for a ride at 10 rather than wait until 2. "Thats a real imposition" my mother started, asnd handed the phone to my father, who continued, "totally … Continue reading Trial Home Visit
Desperate
Everything is well here. I have a place in time and space. Now what i am sensing is freedom from the abortions and right away i am taken back in time. At the risk of my anonymity i need to mention Jim M., PhD in Psychology, and Dr. P.R., Psychiatrist, whose ill will towards a … Continue reading Desperate
Cutthroat–silly of me
There's a woman here who has the better of me through the men. Something went down about a "gang bang." She was standing talking to little J., who isn't here any more, i just realized. And i walked in. Their eyes were locked. Then he turned to me. In the end something was said about … Continue reading Cutthroat–silly of me
All is Well
Resident T., who pissed in the sunshine outside the smoking porch this afternoon, was out there alone when i went outsude for a lonely smike just now, and ran inside when he saw me. On the way back in i felt corrupted, like I became the bully I have inside. On the way up the … Continue reading All is Well
Un.Bon.Mot 