Falling Out of Your Class in America; Part 2

I came here last night to post about something specific and then I lost it and forgot that I lost it. That is pretty endemic to this situation. Which is insanely complex. Hence the "Holy Mary, Queen of Stages" prayer. "Mother Mary, please continue to hold me and dovetail times and places broadly and minutely … Continue reading Falling Out of Your Class in America; Part 2 →

The Biggest Lie

I just uncovered the biggest lie of my whole life and it was put there by Satan. Oh my! I made a suicide attempt when I had just turned 22. I was such a child; I didnt know how to do it. So, i tried to get pills. I went to my mother's doctor and … Continue reading The Biggest Lie →

Cat complex

Posting from my cell phone because this is a sudden, intimate moment. Have been posting momentously, privately. Now, it's about the cats. Because now i see why i was so obsessed over my cat Daisy, getting pregnant when i sent her here from Mass. after relationship with roommate, J. in apartment there broke up in … Continue reading Cat complex →

Fatal Accident

My brother suffered a fatal accident. He made a suicide attempt, jumping off a cliff in his beloved Hawaii. I am reassured by the Lord that in the 10 seconds or so that he had to think about it, he changed his mind; but there was nothing he could do to stop the downward fall. … Continue reading Fatal Accident →

Missing cat; brother’s suicide

Well he was spotted near the barn today. Which turns around two weeks of horrible anxiety. My mother kept saying she would like to find the body so that we would know what happened. My brother recently successfully committed suicide so that's where her mind was at. I happened to know--because he was living over … Continue reading Missing cat; brother’s suicide →

Disconnect; 2

Moving forward in leaps and bounds. Now, the first major disconnect. I was in the Oxton area (It's a up name, I can't use any real names here) of Massachusetts having graduated from Hutton College. I had run myself out of a job and a boyfriend. I had fallen into a relationship with a roommate. … Continue reading Disconnect; 2 →

Battle; email to my ex which I didn’t send

Im fighting a battle here for acknowledgment of a debt of harm to me. Its come up because i sought care in the ER 3 weeks ago and was referred to the Partial hospital program. There i felt like a fish out if water and they discharged me after 4 days, without a reason. I … Continue reading Battle; email to my ex which I didn’t send →

My horrible book

Tremendous value in getting "pissed off" like that. (See the post by that name). First, the X-ville reconciliation I described in my last post, and now i have come to terms with my son and my horrible book. Which brings me to the end of figuring my suicide attempt. I self-published a book made up … Continue reading My horrible book →

All is Well

Resident T., who pissed in the sunshine outside the smoking porch this afternoon, was out there alone when i went outsude for a lonely smike just now, and ran inside when he saw me. On the way back in i felt corrupted, like I became the bully I have inside. On the way up the … Continue reading All is Well →

Sister

Now my sister is what's up on the smoking porch. Through chance associations we fell upon her husband who grew up on a bus in South central Florida with 9 other kids. I cant say any more without clearly revealing his identity. You really did it this time sister. I'm not really sure how that … Continue reading Sister →