AFA Belated Symphathies

I am writing to express my sorrow over the death of a former AFA student of which I have only just learned; if this information is erroneous please disregard this post. I hosted this student at my home with my son one weekend and he was such a darling. Unfortunately he became ill. I didn't … Continue reading AFA Belated Symphathies →

Love, Love, Love

Do it n do it over again. I talked about my sexual dysfunction but I found a man who was right for me. It never felt right at the time but it was. Just right. For me. I needed pain. He was ashamed and I am so sorry for that. Maybe he needed that. But … Continue reading Love, Love, Love →

Abortion Anniversary

I never see it coming. I was even thinking about it on and off for the last couple of days. Thinking, I seem to be over it (because it usually bothers me). Then, just now, I emailed my ex. It was his child. I thought I was too sick to have the baby. This was … Continue reading Abortion Anniversary →

Rage

As i walk away from my brother's dearh which OF COURSE was accidental because he didnt realize what he was doing when he jumoed off that cliff, he had a silly idea in his mind--thats the sad truth. All he needed was career counseling. My fathet and my ex husband are SLIME. He was CRYING … Continue reading Rage →

Hutton Reunion Winding Down Tonight

Its the final Dinner & Dance and im not attending. I backed out last Monday but they forgot to take my name off the list and ive been getting texts about the reunion events all day long since Wednesday! Unfirtunately i was under the impression until late this afternoo. That rhe charity airline tickets and … Continue reading Hutton Reunion Winding Down Tonight →

Hutton Reunion–no

Well i really blew it. I mean, i did the right thing in tbe end, God showed me this morning what to do and i did it but that doesn't always make the path easier. My mother has been on a rampage since getting a visitor to heed her tears last week, she literally made … Continue reading Hutton Reunion–no →

New innocence

Finally I found myself in tears and held by Jesus. Other things went wrong besides the ones I mentioned in my last post "Ectopic Pregnancy," and i realized that i have changed since yesterday as described in ny post "Freedom," about a release from the sex with my husband which had continued in my mind. … Continue reading New innocence →

Attitudes and Personalities

Well so far im fouling out on the separate smoke breaks. I keep uncontrollably craving one at the regular smoke brrak times. At 4 i almost got caught on the way in by big J, although i had higher ground while i was smoking i had to cross near the smoking area to get rid … Continue reading Attitudes and Personalities →

Desultory Ending

Well i have to follow up to be honest. I aced the smoking porch at 9 a.m., having been primed since 6 a.m. i took no guff and walked out of there to rhe sound of church bells ringing. It was clear that i had to be there and thats why i had to miss … Continue reading Desultory Ending →