Rift

Here there is a final rift with my father and I will be leaving; it cannot go another way. He is busted down to "traffic cop." I cant even remember now the reason but this fits. He had been going around everywhere having affairs with people in this head, even Sister M.; and my old … Continue reading Rift →

Miracle Day

I have been tapering off Clozaril, a powerful antipsychotic med; and adjusting to Nuplazid, a very gentle new antipsychotic med intended for Parkinsonian patients. It is very expensive and had to be approved by my insurance. I'm not sure whether it was my strange, Parkinsonian-like condition that made the doctor think of it for me, … Continue reading Miracle Day →

Diet crisis

My mother is creating an uproar over the current status here pursuant to my being up all night off my psych med Clozaril. Meawhile i am seeing an underlying crisis that is really evil. Over the last month or two i have suddenly gained 10 pounds over taking the diabetes medicine Metformin. I started trying … Continue reading Diet crisis →

Watershed

So im sitting here and i prayed and i sat diwn in my mind with the pastor who closed tbe door on me and my talk of sexual abuse. And God showed me, yes. You will have to acceot this evl from me. And i do get words like this from him at times. And … Continue reading Watershed →

Omg im glad to be back

Omg im glad to be back. I went private 6 days ago because i referred my ex to my last post and then got scared he would direct my parents to it as hes caught up in this psychodrama through the banruptcy proceedings. But now it doesn't matter: the shit hit the fan anyway. Si … Continue reading Omg im glad to be back →

Problem Solved

Couldnt have worked out better. Miss V cane out 15 minutes late for 400 smoke break all ready for me. But then tbe phone rang while i was smoking my first cigarette: doctor calling to confirm for Monday, which broke up the carefully orchestrated solution. So i dropped everything and walked uo to her explaining … Continue reading Problem Solved →

The Battle for my Blog

Well it happens every time. I buy a custom domain and then i get carried away with my blog. This time i got thrown a curve. I started thinking about my old therapist in Florida, the one i got hung up on for years. At one point he was ready to date me but i … Continue reading The Battle for my Blog →