in other words, words, Dad, Alex. he was so insecure about my male College associations. he was so way high above them as a husband and friend to me and Ian. as a Canadian he had the habits of an armchair intellectual. he had his flaws. But he had a few years on them. He … Continue reading About Dad
Tag: Writing
emancipation
Today I have emancipated myself from my family who never loved me. I practiced at age 16, when I ran away from home in Summit, New Jersey, gaining the lifelong ire of my father, who met me with a comeuppance I couldn't possibly understand at that age, and still can't. Recently, we called it "the … Continue reading emancipation
…a tender romantic love story
this was first published in 2021 before I went to the hospital, it has been altered. the IT BIT BYTE marriage about a tricky clit do it in technicolor make it for the kids I got kneed in the crotch, it was like someone bit my clit off. it paved the way for an immaculate … Continue reading …a tender romantic love story
Old book projects d/c’d
"Every Cloud," a book project that had me for so long, i have discontinued, set aside, abandoned, after this mention i will never again bring it to mind. It led to a serious suicide attrmpt and a bankruptcy. Since then, my brother effectively commited suicide. The book project kept me alive in the most visceral … Continue reading Old book projects d/c’d
Hello
Hello! I am returning after a long absence. I have been progressing in my psychotherapy and religion toward a much better place. You will find that my style has greatly changed and will continue to evolve with a total reworking of my mental structures from abysmally complicated (before) to dynamic and complex (now). My psych … Continue reading Hello
Writing; Fighting
The clouds out my newly cleared out window look like punctuation: two small dark ones over a small white one. Today i am writing my heart out. I am writing for my son's life. I an writing for my salvation. I am wirking on my book. My therapist directed me to Ephesians 6: 10-20 The … Continue reading Writing; Fighting
Asshole
I have learned NEVER to use that word about any man. But there is an exception to every rule. I am embracing words from a book called "The Wounded Heart: Hope for Adult Victims of Childhood Sexual Abuse." Dan Allender says in this book that it IS good to confront your abuser, if possible, when … Continue reading Asshole
Wow! I’m writing
In the last few days i have written a class note at Hutton.edu, an email to my father (about sexual abuse), a thank you ketter to my doctor at the extended acute care unit i stayed on for 8 months before coming here; and numerous posts here. Last thing i remember, before neeting my ex … Continue reading Wow! I’m writing
Un.Bon.Mot 