Apprised

i have heard from an excellent source the exact state that my agfairs are in after pining away in here all alone for months knowing that SOMETHING was going down and assuming that it was likely rhe Lawsuit against Johns Hopkins.

in fact, it turns out, as far as I can tell my sister took advantage if this hot topic to carve out a criminal lawsuit AGAINST ME based on behaviour against her in our childhood.

which is utterly ridiculous. I have not had the chance to face my accuser. I have not been informed in this regard. I jave been beaten up by her, her boyfriends, and worse, mt parents, through most of my adulthood for tne audacity of having a beautiful chuld whom U adored and who made up for tne abuse I reveivwd in my famiky for having “a problem.” Those words all ways meant bad news but now, those beautiful, life-giving words from Mr. Rogers quoted in the recent movie made all the difference: “If its mentionable, its manageable.”

There was a name for what i was going through: Organic Personality Disorder. And all the surrounding problems and dis orders and diagnoses snd dysfunctions were the constellation surrounding this core profile.

its a personality disorder surrounding a physical illness or injury at any time in life. In my case I was born with it but there were secondary, SERIOUS injuries that made me nonfunctional for decades.

But I always knew who i was and where i was and the date and thr last four presidents; these are the questions they ask to test for schizophrenia. I became radically disorganized in California because of an acquired seizure disorder– or something like it. That started before i met my ex-husband and worsened dramatically in the first apartmrnt in California. Who I am has gone through so many drastic changes since then.