Letter to my son

I am sensing in your mood that you are hearing some bad things from people who knew me at Kent and Harvard and other times. I am very sorry for this. Sorry that people are telling you and sorry that those things happened. There were a lot of people taking advantage of me and leading me down wrong paths and … Continue reading Letter to my son →

Kent School, Connecticut

We used to vacation at Lake Waramaug near New Preston, CT, and my parents discovered that there was a boarding school nearby. It was about a minute before whey decided to A send us to boarding school and B be definitely interested in Kent, especially because of the equestrian program. In other words, my mother … Continue reading Kent School, Connecticut →

train tracks

the tears I've cried would leave traintracks down my face if I had ever been able to actually cry them. There's a freight train that runs through this vicinity, it runs about 400 yards from our home. It runs throughout the day and night. Not TOO often. I have finally got the hang of it. … Continue reading train tracks →

I remember the tree that I almost kissed but just short on 309 South on the way to Tamp (lol!)

I had boycotted my mother's wake/luncheon. It would have been worse if I went. I was on a weird new anti-psychotic medication, I had been transitioning for ages with no positive result. So I stopped it, got in the car and made left turns until I figured out where to go. THE WORST THING was … Continue reading I remember the tree that I almost kissed but just short on 309 South on the way to Tamp (lol!) →

apology

i made some statements about myself and people who i am close to based on reading about the Chinese "horoscope." first, let me make another apology to kehugh andd Berjs county generally fir things i have said and done here when i was disoruented: most if all for leaving, in 1991, without saying any goodbyes. … Continue reading apology →

A poem for the Queen

i will miss you i already do. Its all out in the cold for us now, a warm, loving presence that we took for granted for so long has gone away to her eternal rest and i am left sitting downstairs where there is no heat On a ricketty old rattan chair at my son's … Continue reading A poem for the Queen →

Neck and spine injury

everybody is lying. heres a bit of hard core dispute. so, i drove to the hospital ER myself in Florida in the mid 2000s with my head pulling down to my left shoulder and got treated afterwards at Morton plant Orthopaedic center by dr Raphael Schwartz ( cant remember the name for sure; my mother … Continue reading Neck and spine injury →

two more significant MEMES

one for bug phobia beginning with "palmetto bugs" (huge cockroaches) in south Florida as folllows: heres the whole page: NEXT: MEME FOR NEURLOGICAL SEXUAL ISSUES OVER A LIFETIME: this is when i broke. I ju s t couldnt handle THIS; after everything else. I went to the psych ward, the good one. They let me … Continue reading two more significant MEMES →

im still standing. Barely

my son is the light of my life. im gaining confidence and strength rapidly after seeing a competent physician today. im not sure what his take on it was.

the crux of the matter

my mother and father held me all my life since age 24 b3cause of 5he night about 3 months after Werne4sville, the doctors were tapering off 5he medic8ne. I 5hought tgat meant stoppin ng it altogether. there 2as an insanely horrible moment when my mother triggered an 8nvokuntary and 7n c ontrollable r3s9 r3sponse 0wgph3n … Continue reading the crux of the matter →