my mother and father held me all my life since age 24 b3cause of 5he night about 3 months after Werne4sville, the doctors were tapering off 5he medic8ne. I 5hought tgat meant stoppin ng it altogether. there 2as an insanely horrible moment when my mother triggered an 8nvokuntary and 7n c ontrollable r3s9 r3sponse 0wgph3n … Continue reading the crux of the matter
Category: Psychiatry
“Acknowledgement”
posting on my knees. now i am sitting cross-legged on the floor.. here are the words above: "Acknowledgement is encouragement. "so important. "verification and validation also. "in Jesus day, the possibilities for verification were so much slimmer. No cell phone. No email. "But, people jyst knew their saviour when they saw Him. "Today we chase … Continue reading “Acknowledgement”
A new concept in psych
I hit upon the concept pt of Retroactive Interpolation in psychotherapy and my last post represented a trial of it. After that, or as a part of it, comes proactive proliferation of tthe better future. That's where I was at after getting out of Horsham and comng h9m toa dangerous situation here. That's why all … Continue reading A new concept in psych
turnaround
so, I went through the worst MH moment on record after taking a seemingly insignificant overdose in 2015 (?). I just had the weirdest, irresistible urge to put pills in my mouth and the urge finally won on my parents anniversary. I was j7s5 sitt8ngvthere at the dining room table where I k4pt all the … Continue reading turnaround
Occult healing
I am finally stepping free from that ICU table where I have lived all these many years. the MH System may not work very well on its own but where God steps in it comes together. As here. clamped catheter agony i dont know why this happened to me and maybe I never will but … Continue reading Occult healing
re: inventory at age 60
is there a doctor--a psychiatrist--in Allentown who is willing to see me based on the profile I presented in my last post? please understand that I had a horrible experience the first time I reached out to a psych practitioner and I was never able to help myself after that. Ive been food for fools … Continue reading re: inventory at age 60
inventory at age 60
well now that I have settled the sexual abuse issue--it did happen--I was caught up in the worst season for sexual abuse claims, the early 80's, it was a craze and still is. I just wanted to know exactly what happened and maybe I don't know all of it but I know two key parts … Continue reading inventory at age 60
the abortion
I was always so troubled about the first pregnancy and abortion. why would anyone do that? He said "Let me come deep inside you, say you love me until the end of time!" well I was not ready for that but he had me pinned down. I said to myself let it be of free … Continue reading the abortion
yes it really happened
Although I do not clearly remember (they may have knocked me out) I have the evidence of my subconscious and where my lights went out on the Pagoda Unit, the "tan code" where I was safe if I was touching the tan-colored handrails, just like it was a grade school game. Then I remember the … Continue reading yes it really happened
next step.
I grieve for my father and the life that we had. I grieve for the person, the man that he was. We sacrificed. Because he was doing things that were important. Hopkins trashed all that. my father offered to punch me and my mother picked up Ian and fled here to the cottage where I … Continue reading next step.
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